past and present

Aiyyooo...x payah nak self proud sgt la kan tyra ..nak cite pasal diri sendiri je...(eee ni blog sy kan jd ske aty sy la kan..lala~) Since I wake up early for my sahur today (awal 1 jam je pon, baik g ngaji sane)...Suddenly i feel like typing/writing/blogging? Either one la kan..

I feel like sharing something about myself which relates to my behavior..(toink toink) When I was small, I was very bossy...Everyone have to listen to me~ That kind of attitude makes me very similar with Marie's attitude (because i'm a lady that'ts y) Dari kecik duk rewind cite The Aristocats, tu yg jadi cam tu.. COincidently there were 3 kittens characters in that cartoon 2 male kitten n a female kitten, that time there were only 3 of us (Along,me n Jiji)...That's how I was at home that time..

sgt adorable ye time tu :p

In kindergarten , THAT attitude remain the same..but I was more to gangster...boys at the kindergarten also cant beat me in any cases...I was a little bit tomboy (TUNGGAL PMPUAN~) that time n adik abang sgt.. That time my Along is really patient laa I tell u..kat skola asyik nak mengekor along je..kwan ngan kawan2 along...If i recall everything, me myself can't stand with that kind of girl....When I was gone for exchange programme I have host sister name Zamia. I told about how she behave to my parents. Guess what they said~ (Hurmm that kind of attitude...sounds familiar) Toink toink kantoi~

Me today~ Totally opposite with me in the past..U can judge me after u meet me or know me.. Based on what my friends said about me.. I am...soft(har har)....can't say 'NO'...manje(tua bangke x sedar)~ GEGURL SGT!!!...somehow being me (manje kind of attitude) people misjudge me as GEDIX...seriously it hurts to heard that..being outspoken makes people said I am show off....That's why I started to be a little bit low profile which that's how it should be la kan...

BUT...there always a but...I express myself differently..which is through vlogs n blogs...another thing is..my appearance..about my appearance la kan...I am so dang enthusiast     in fashion..(istighfar..sederhana dlm semua hal tyra)...that's why I dont mind to try something new..as long as still according to syarak ( i try my best to follow)...to those yg duk kritik je keje how i dressed....MYOB (mind your own bussiness)... people who love to criticic ni kan...xtau la nak ckp camne...udoh2 le ngate orgnyer...samada die sedar atau x...die telah mengecilkan hati org lain...n lg satu...die telah me'remark' dirinyer as shallow thinker...so muhasabah diri yer...(jgn sampai i wat vlog psal ni lol)

Blog post kali ni gle kentang cam jaja sikap sndiri kt org kan..basicly..people do change..Boleh je berubah dr yg kurg baik ke lebih baik..kan2..

أهلا وسهلا ya Ramadhan ~

With a blink of eye...Ramadhan is already started...It is sad to know that I have to fast without being around my family but its ok.. I have GC with me (gadis ciptaan).. BTW before I started to fast, I was demanding for a few food that I can get if I were home (melampau kan sy hee~)
 Since my eldest brother just started working at SECRET RECIPE..I ask him to get me spicy chicken cornish ( karipap besar je pon) a day before I decided to come home...My dad pick me up at the bus station, and he told me mum doesnt  prepare dinner coz she have tuition class tonight so what I want to have for dinner. Since I only crave for IT...I ask my dad to drop by at SecretRecipe IM to see my Along..Ske2 ambush ke kaunter n tanyer kakak kat c2 Ahmad Radhi mane kak. Tgk2 my Along is dedicatedly wiping the table..Bergaye siot..COOL sgt...Hug him n take my chicken cornish..(customer n waiter kt c2 pndang slek je, pehal wat PDA kt cni..:p)hee

last2 share berempat baru abes

He just change his job..Before this he worked at Kamdar, since he get better offer he accepted the offer from Secret Recipe. He's in uniform now y'll. Ye la break lame2 duk umah je boring kowt.. This is the time for him to gain knowledge and experience..You Go ALONG~

Tak cukup dengan tu..Since these days musim durian n my dad know I am the only children who really eat durian..hehe..so he baught the best quality durian so that we can eat it before fasting month.

I just ate 3 per day(per meal =p)

.My mum did this beyond of expectation cook..She knows I love seafood especially prawn ( i wish i have the picture, n crab so dang much. So she bought freakishly massive prawn I ever see and crabs( I dont know how many kilos are they) for my 3 days n 2 night stays at home (heaven~)..My mum said its all mine and I have to finish them within my stay coz my mom dont want to see the lefts over when I already back in campus..sob3 Thank you soo much mama..you know here...nothing suits my taste buds...but I eat to keep on surviving here..
Therefore...back in campus kne extreme diet n work ot la kan..of course...xkan nak biar bdan cam pelampung kan(even skrg already mcm anak bdak)...nanti xmuat plak baju raye I...yg xwujud lg tu (soon2)
This blog title is welcome ramadhan n...what did I wrote???hampeh la awk ni tyra...

Win Heart N Mind

This program is under co curricular of uni which all Diploma sem3 have to take part. In it there's a programme under TESLIAN where we have to conduct n activities in primary school with help of other facies (friends from other course) Guess what, I am the only TESLIAN handling the programme in a school. Even me myself cant believe it.. It is actually out of my imagination kowt. BTW praise to god I managed to handle it with their help (other faci). Korg mmg terbaik la. Oppssy.. skip cite pule...

All of UniSZA's student have to stay with foster family. My foster family is the best. I feel so lucky to have them. Tyra sowg je spatotnye Ida skali. Since Ida dah tukar senitari,then i'm alone. Pa, mak, abg Mus, Alang n Yana. Yana is my niece, she call me mak ngah and she is the one that will give ride and send me to Fasha, Watiey n Ila's house (they stay together in 1 house). At the beginning cuak gak, coz the bath room didn't have a door. (with 3 men in the house,u can imagine how I felt). Thanked god, there were no accident happened. (sigh). What make me feel luckier, there always some1 that will pick me up from the bus to take me home *wink2...

Even I dont have little brother n sister, tumpang adik2 org laen. Those kids sgt peramah even agak hyper..they juz being kids. One of them cried badly when we have to leave..Isn't it sweet... Those experience I cant put it in words.

Seronoknyer... Mak asyik risau suh makan je... My first meal there is nasi with sambal petai. I orang kampung telan je lauk2 cam tu.. Mak risau coz I dont eat much rice. Even abes programme kul 9 p.m pon mak suh mkn nasi. That's why I said to her, Mak nseb baik tyra tiggal kejap je, klu tggal lame, x muat pintu ni ha tyra nak kuar.ha6..Btw they call me MIRA instead of TIRA...hik hik..Final day baru diorang pggil Tira..huhu..These few days they call me almost everyday even juz to say 'dah makan ke blom?'. HIHI

Fear ~

I am in fear...

Fear of of being in love

loving him without he love me back

Fear of jealousy

feeling jealous seeing him with someone else

Fear of loneliness

once he is mine I want him to be always by my side

Fear of waiting

waiting for him to say he love me out loud

Fear of uncertainty

will he feels hurt seeing me with some1 else?

Fear of myself

being carried away with this feeling...

Me recently

Last night I didn't had enough sleep. That's why I just woke up and straight away wrote this. At 2 a.m my body suddenly awake by a 'feeling' that I haven't feel it for quite sometimes. Feeling of being in love with someone. My friends always tell me that love will come naturally in your live without your expect it. I dont know what am I thinking right now. Maybe this feeling come because I am too stress out know, so GOD lend this feeling to ease this tense down a little bit. If it so thanked GOD..I am so appreciate if it juz a short n temporary feelings coz if it not I'm not sure whether I can handle it or not.

can I handle this? ^0^

Why I am feeling tense? 2nd Secretary works + assignments + presentation + missing my family (every1 does intense. DUHH~). Normally shopping will ease these tense but I think this time it is not enough. In addition, issue with junior which kind a freak me out. *Congrats kid I am freaked out. I wish I dont have any responsibility but somehow another part of me feeling grateful  to the opportunity that I got. So that I know  how to handle this n that in such organisation. Cuddling n kissing are the important thing in my life. Its been 4 weeks I dont get any of it. Dont misunderstood here. I'm some kind of pervert ok. I mean cuddles n kisses from my family. Not get any of it make me feel neglected *baru 4 mggu keccoohh
Saw one by one of my friends went home and their family came to visit make me feel very lonely. I want it too (we cant everything we want sis)

What else I can say other than..ATHIRAH take it like a grown ups.. You are not a baby anymore..

stinky heart can't be hide 4 ever

How to face with a envy kind of people.... Envy tu ape teacher?? Envy tu iri hati yunk. Anywhere we go, there always people that dont like us...How to handle this? First thing first, bersyukur coz kite ade advantage yg sampai ade orang envy kat kite. *Alhamdulillah... BUT jgn riak pulak...That's why it is very important to us to be down to earth kind of person.


Envy is not always negative in haunting to become a better person. (haunting?) For example, envy with our friend because he/she perform better in studies than us. The envy feelings will be a trigger for us to struggle more and perform better in studies too just like our friend. Positive tuuu..


But in term of envy with our friend because of the advantage that they have is a BIG DON'TS. Even you dont show it as time goes by..the truth will be revealed...Having this kind of friend we should be very careful and be patient with them. Sometimes they act as innocent as baby and advice us if we have made 'mistakes'. Behind all that, there were envy in it. Dont trust me?? been there done that... Dont call this people a friend, they dont deserve it AT ALL..


 Normally this kind of person are very2 good in manipulating a situation which makes us feel we are the biggest jerk in the world..(which actually they are the 1 that jerks) from time to time people will notice who's in the right place.. key word for this whole situation is be patient..SABAR....and pray to god to give us strength in dealing this kind of people..

a look have million meaning

Setiap org ade kelemahan and kelebihan masing2..buat ape nak envy2 ni..At the end, it will destroy the relationship je..Betoll.. Long term of envy will result a hater...Someone who never agree with anything that people do. (normally to a person they envy with) Teacher ckp belit2 x paham..xpe2
This post is more to personal feeling that have been convert to words. People are complicated. Sometimes people misjudge us about who we are..Nak wat camne...

still long way to go...

This sem I dah senior la u..( best ke??) Perhaps not really... For this initial..(huh??!!) I mean beginning..duhh~ of this semester..I am so much love to be in my silent..not that silent la..but less talk more reading and plug in my ears (since lecture x start lg kan)...

It's feeling AWESOME  to live in your own world while others chit chat n making stupid jokes in class.(yela bile lagi nak wat bising n bersuka ria kan) but I don't know what happen to me..out of sudden I started to like reading..(did I just type it?? 'READ"?) YEAH ME READING~  I know unbelievable kot...I hate reading...but since I'm not interested in talking too much nonsense anymore, only reading and plug in my ear will keep me silence..(I LOVE THE NEW ME)... Yup coz if I'm too energetic and talking too much kene label plak ( tyra suke attract attention, bajet howt dowh) * no 1 cares laa weyh

 I love my new roomate. Alhamdulillah..Praise to Allah for give her as my roomies.. She such a sweet person..we get along well (or is it too soon to say so?) It's fine its a doa from me..Hoping we'll be fine living together for 2 semester.. we're in same course but she is in the other group..having her as my roomies makes me feel more belong to 'GADIS CIPTAAN' with my 2 majesty who just be my sisters..huhu..

I admit that now me myself are becoming quite dull and boring person. I realise it but I think that is the best fact to know now. If we are less appealing, people will not notice us so much. Meaning u wont be a hot topic to be talk about behind your back * i hope . weyh ignore je la..Till when we should lives based on people judgement. Lala~