Feeling down -..-

Dunno why lately I felt emotionally unstable.. I should not feel that way coz I got the best people in the world around me..Although somehow I feel they kind a make a distance from me...I hope i do nothing wrong.. Yeah a few people that used to be closed to me started to make a huge size of great wall of China in our relationship. I dont mind as long as u happy.
My performance is going down too..Recently we got quiz for English Proficiency .. I can imagine how Ms Alia will react, 'T-rex I am so gonna kill u!!'.For my classmates I am not as bright as u guys thought.U guys can categorize me as one of the 'lumpy' person u've ever known.
I dont't mind if u gonna kill me but I have to do better for my own future not for you. It just grammar Athirah..
Cant wait to be home and be pampered by Babah n Mama after a long time living in an independent daily life here.
I have to get use to life where no one give attention to u..I have to start being a grown ups..yup for sure..
I am so confused whether should I join Kesenian club or not..I want to but I cant.. that's the simplest reason..Dont feel like writing actually.

0_0 me being tough

I'm not getting lucky all the time.I had my bad day yesterday but I am grateful coz I know that ALLAH love me that's why i faced so many difficulties in a day.Start from the morning, there was a PTPTN N BIMB thing to settle.I just realise that i just have a copy of my mum slip gaji, so what i did was leave the long queue n rush to the library to photostat it.When I return back to DABS my fren Ika told me that the form just need a only a copy of a backup document, such a waste.Its ok~ think positive Athirah that is ur exercise for today.
The session with PTPTN a lil bit disorganised coz people cut queue.Those people have no integrity at all, such a selfish.During my turn....disaster happen..my form have a liquid paper mark so..it was REJECTED..the machine can't scan form with liquis paper marks...I almost cry but big girls dont cry ryte?? I rush to the library to print out those forms again which cost me RM4.40.... It's all my fault:(
Back in DABS...I call my dad n ask him is ryte for me to go straight away to the counter or should I queue again and he said this time I should be selfish coz I have a bus to catch..being selfish is soo not me i feel anxious bout what people would say bout my act...I sit near to Ika n Mia n told them bout my story, both of them ask me to go to the counter straight away but I still dont feel good bout doing it,So what I did was talk to the person who was suppose to be next (dealing with ptptn staff) asking for permission to go before her...But she said she also in a rush coz she have a class..negotiation does'nt work...so do it hard way..forget bout what they said..i went straight away to that akak n she still remember me n ask me to sit with a smiling face..I love u la kakak..U are the best although u asked me to print back the forms before..
PTPTN SETTLED~:D
My second scene was..I missed my bus..and it was not my mistakes..the bus wrote nothing bout the destination..i bought ticket for trans so there’s no reason i ride city liner..arrghh..I have no idea y Trgganu Terminal have such a disorganized system..RM18.90 gone just like that... so i bought another ticket at 5.30pm which turn out to be 6.30p.m.Guess what my seat no.??? 38 but the seat in the bus is just 32...(doent make any sense)I have right to complain but I am too tired to bother. So I were stand for a while..thanked god there was a gentleman that gave me a seat..Although he was trying to flirt..At the end we had a chat and he made to get my no...silly me

Gonna leave this house soon

So...only 2 more sleep left..then off me go...I hope I will fit in well.. ari ni dapat good news..Tabung Haji call n inform that our family ley g haji ujung thun ni..Alhamdulillah...so my preparation...i will be a better person n bykkan usaha dekatkan diri dgn Allah n bertaubat..Heaps of sin i already made before..should ask 4 forgiveness...I dunno what i feel now..sleepy for sure..

BTW..Kak dayah dah balik dr Jordan..huhu...hepi2..xtau nak tulis pe dah...sedey la nak tggalkan umah...nak bwk ke x Marie kepala besar tu ek??Hmmm

~BOWLING~

As every member in my family know..I AM A BAD BOWLING PLAYER~ (well that's not hard to admit)..even my youngest brother is better than me..LOL and he just 11 years old... Well after a long time yesterday night my eldest brother accidently payed for six person..That's mean I have to play..OMG!!!I t such a waste of money and time.. Me playing??NO WAY~....If one day I have a boyfriend I'm not gonna let him drag me to the bowling alley..

So..as usual my 1st throw sucks...but miracle happen sometimes..to me... i got all pin fell in my 2nd throw..HAHA...I am so surprised..Me???doing that???That must be someone else..or it just a coincident..The most weird thing was, everytime during my turn the 1st throw will be in the drain but the 2nd one it will strike more than half of the pin but far from strike...1st throw for every round was cursed..That's all I can say..

Mama just discover that her lucky ball is not that lucky coz it so light which that is the reason y she bought it..So she try her shot using other ball..ball number 9 blue (colour is important LOL)...She score higher point with that heavier ball..but it makes her wrist hurts..So that's me throwing in the alley again..Practice makes perfect ryte~

uni here I come~

At last I got accepted by local uni which called Universiti Darul Iman Malaysia in Kuala Terengganu...At 1st i'm not really happy bout it coz I wish I got to futher my study somewhere near KL..but my dad is really clever..He took me to look around the campus so that I will thrilled to study there..It is a nice place..2 days ago from Kedah my dad drove to Kelantan then Terengganu..The place is ok..near the beach ...not in isolated area..I love it.thanks daddy for the sight seeing...

Then..we had sotong celup tepung in the famous place there..my dad already taste it before when he gone for a volleyball uni battle few years ago..our family was a final person leave the place..they actually closed at 7.30 p.m but that day they closed quite late because of us..hihi..nice treat Babah..

My dad is a IRON MAN..He drove straight away from Kedah passed through Kelantan n Terengganu and reach our home in Kuantan..We arrived at 1 in the morning..I'm not really sure coz I am so sleepy that time..Awesome daddy~Thanks for everything

What I learn from playboy~

Playboy is a term for a boy that need more than a girl to be his girlfriend.NO..nO.actually not as a girlfriend..He has a girlfriend and a few other girls to fool around with..Dont get me wrong ok..The purpose of this blog is not to look down to all the playboy and humiliate them..I just want to share a few lesson that I got from a player..Normally playboy hates when people call them player although they really are..I wrote this coz it is part of my experience..I really look up to that guy..seriously..he is really powerful..forget bout this guy..we back to the topics.

Lesson no.1=We must have a strong faith to ourself....Meaning..dont easily trust and listen to the sweet talk.All of them are crap from the mouth of the player.

Lesson no.2=.If you are single and under 30..dont feel bad about it..u are so lucky to be single coz there is a lot more to explore than have to follow every single thing your boyfriend ask you to do.you are free!!!

Lesson no.3=A player is really good in making people feel sorry for him..actually they just playing prethetic all the time which what he really are.

Lesson no. 4=Looks,sweet atitude and soft spoken are the characterristic that they have..From a 1st sight even ur parents will fall for him..but dont be fool by that coz that is all the player got..they got no other thing..poor thing..

Lesson no.5=I have no regret write all this thing coz most probably he could not understand what I wrote about..lol

All the list above is more to anger that I have to let go... I have to..I need to..Coz in real life I treat this guy in a best way I could coz I have to prove that what he did to me is nothing..it did'nt meant anything to me...although it soo damn hurt...still tore me apart everytime I think about it..You win Mr. Playboy..You happy now??
..If people ask me about that guy I will never talk bad things bout him..coz it will just make me look more stupid than I am.Beware girls there is a lot more guys like this species..Choose guy with a good religion background...I hope no one will read this..Ewww my life is so precious rather than spending my time think about that good looking creature...

Let me be on my own~

Uni...College...IPTA ....IPTS...tak kisah la which one that I will enter to...although I dont have any confirmation yet whether layak ke tak....but the main point is..i really hope I will start this whole journey somewhere new...i mean new place..new environment and new people..if I can choose with whom I want to get a long with..I choose strangers....coz for me I dont want anyone from my high school life to be with me...dont get it wrong...it just...

How to say this...I need to explore the outside world by meeting new people..mix around with many different people....I love my bff..but I am so happy if three of us continue our journey by breaking our comfort zone...I think people will agree with my statement..if we get along with the same people for ages..I talk about friend not lovers or family...we might know more about his/her dark side and might get sick of it.not 'might'..... really sick of it...this might sound a little bit selfish but this is what I feel..I know I dont have the best attitude but I can adapt with something new.

Sometimes meeting all sorts of people..facing different kind of attitudes to be exact..will make us think and analyze about behaviour..plus make us grown up and more mature in making decisions...moreover, I am enthusiast to be a teacher which gonna make me play with teenagers psychology....so I like to be in a new environment + people (1st minded people if there any)..mostly Malaysian people is 3rd minded people..including me...maybe...but I am learning to be 1st minded person..so fellow friend dont get me wrong..I love u guys but... let me be on my own...please continue whatever u doing now...u guys should break ur comfort zone...I know most of my friend feel very happy if they got to continue their study with sum1 they know or close to from high school...but I'm not one of that kind of person...