Let me be on my own~

Uni...College...IPTA ....IPTS...tak kisah la which one that I will enter to...although I dont have any confirmation yet whether layak ke tak....but the main point is..i really hope I will start this whole journey somewhere new...i mean new place..new environment and new people..if I can choose with whom I want to get a long with..I choose strangers....coz for me I dont want anyone from my high school life to be with me...dont get it wrong...it just...

How to say this...I need to explore the outside world by meeting new people..mix around with many different people....I love my bff..but I am so happy if three of us continue our journey by breaking our comfort zone...I think people will agree with my statement..if we get along with the same people for ages..I talk about friend not lovers or family...we might know more about his/her dark side and might get sick of it.not 'might'..... really sick of it...this might sound a little bit selfish but this is what I feel..I know I dont have the best attitude but I can adapt with something new.

Sometimes meeting all sorts of people..facing different kind of attitudes to be exact..will make us think and analyze about behaviour..plus make us grown up and more mature in making decisions...moreover, I am enthusiast to be a teacher which gonna make me play with teenagers psychology....so I like to be in a new environment + people (1st minded people if there any)..mostly Malaysian people is 3rd minded people..including me...maybe...but I am learning to be 1st minded person..so fellow friend dont get me wrong..I love u guys but... let me be on my own...please continue whatever u doing now...u guys should break ur comfort zone...I know most of my friend feel very happy if they got to continue their study with sum1 they know or close to from high school...but I'm not one of that kind of person...

Mother's Day~

Penat x ilang lg padahal dah tido 2 malam , maybe coz x biase travel dalam bus lame2. MOTHER'S DAY kali ni rase special sangat coz dapat spend time ngan mama , juz two of us..Actually kebetulan je rombongan sekolah mama jatuh pada tarikh yg same. Btw excited la kan dapat jejalan ngan mama je mcm girl nyte out plak.Semua anak2 laki ngan babah tinggal, diorg x kisah pon siap plan nak order piza lg.
Pukul 11 bergerak.Dalam bus sejuk sgt2..Kite x duduk sebelah mama coz nanti mama kan nak tdo lgpon banyak lagi kerusi kosong, jadi kite duk la btol2 behind seat mama n duk sebelah Zia ex- student mama who is same age with me.Die pon x dapat tawaran g mane2 lagi.Die baru berhenti keje kat taska Raimi dulu.Sampai Kelantan dalam area kul 5.45 nak subuh la.Kitorang sewa bilik hotel yang terletak btol2 tengah2 bandar.5 orang satu bilik.

Pagi tu breakfast Nasi Kerabu.Nikmatnyer makan nasi after almost 2 years. Saje je break the rules sebab bukan everyday dapat makan Nasi Kerabu Kelantan kan..Sah2 kene puasa beria balik umah nanti.Tapi Nasi Kerabu diorang kaler putih la. Sakit tekak baru je nak baik hentam plak Apple juice , sakit balik tekak. Sehari suntuk shopping. Rase penat sangat coz cuaca panas n kering.Teman mama shopping memang x ingat dunia.Mama nak sangat tea set Vantage, sanggup jalan jauh tau.Kite layan je mama nak ape n x kisah pon angkat barang sampai nak putus jari..Seriously mmg macam nak putus jari ni.Yang x leh bla nye, time nak naik bas ade kawan mama snap gambar kitorang coz kitorang bwak barang byk sgt mcm semua benda habis kitorang beli..buat malu je tau..tp x kisah la kan

Lunch kat tempat makan yang agak ..famous la kat situ..makan budu n sambal belacan, sampai menangis tau makan..ye la makan nasi kurang, hentam sambal belacan , budu n ulam.. Athirah x pnah ingat name tempat sebab tu la x mention ape2 name..haha..Dah siap makan tu bukannyer reti nak rehat jap kat bilik..sambung jalan kat pasar siti khadijah lak.Bahang sangat kat situ.Mama n Untie Azwa still semangat nak cari kain pasang .Kite n Zia ni layan je la ibu kami ni..Tapi bile dah sampai limit, masing2 ingat kan ibu masing2 huhu..

Dah balik bilik siap mandi n jamak solat ape yang ptot, ade orang hantar Nasi kukus lak kat bilik kitorang.X la lapar sangat ,so share je nasi tu ngan mama.Disebabkan jari luka coz makan ketam semalam terpaksa la mama suap..Agak teruk jgak la..ye la makan ketam x ingat dunia.Malam tu singgah Wakaf Che Yeh..wah tira ingat nama tempat..bukan senang..lol Diberi masa dari kul 8 malam sampai 12..Tp mama x larat nak jalan , kul 10 dah naik bas . Perjalanan balik sunyi je coz semua org penat, tp kite x le tdo jd dengar org berdengkur je. Sampai rumah klu 11 lebih.

Pink is the colour of my blood~IDTS

fOR ALL the blogger..sorry coz kowg trpaksa melihat pink colour yg agak over rated..plus Marie Aristocats yg kurg famous but no 1 in my heart..Menggilai +addicted ngan pink n marie ni is not a new facts 4 sum1 who already know me..but for sure bukan sebarang pink k..not trashy pink stuff...coz nanti nampak childish sgt..as a matter of facts collecting these pink n marie stuff fill up my emptiness n loneliness..it makes me be a positive person..I cannot live with the facts that I have to leave some of those stuff if I've got accepted to any uni....I hope enthusiast bout those thing not gonna make me a self centered person..

Gadget!!!Gadget!!!

Dah lame x tulis blog...coz I still confius between blog n diary...sometimes I mix personal things in my blog,I like to share but dont misunderstand plak.Mcm la ade org nak bace kan blog ni..Xpe la let me express my feelings through writing.Lgpun time skrg ni je la ade mase nak jog down pape..Nanti dah msuk uni x terkejar nak tulis2 ni...
BTW recently ade PIKOM PC Fair kat Mega which I went there 3 days in a row(gadget obsession)..aPE LG I went there with my dad..usha lappy..then dpt la lappy Dell kaler pink ni..I called it COTTON CANDY..(ingat anak kucing ke nak bg2 nama,tp suke aty I la kan),Syukur Alhamdulillah Allah pinjamkan rezeki-Nya yg melimpah ruah.Although I got what I want,it doesnt mean that I am spoit child..Coz my dad still consider whether I deserve it or not..Lgpon nanti nak continue study lappy is compulsory..crucial kot..nak wat assignment camne xde lappy kan..
I got something new but have to giveaway something else.Actually its not mine.Along ask back for his mp3..I dont mine i already prepare myself to loose it..He gave it to me coz his phone alredy got mp3 but now his phone is already broken he need it back..Xde istilah buruk siku eh..For me mp3 is my boyfriend coz it always be with me and never make me feel lonely..Actually it is Ajin's but he already got Sony Zap for free with his camera.But,Hey~My dad said I can buy a new one..Yippie!!!So what am I doing now is doing research what brand should I buy..Thinking of Ipod..but it need itune sofware which make my life harder..I need drag n drop mp3 format just like Ajin's.I might end up buying exactly like his but pink in colour..Maybe coz his mp3 is not bad..Lgpon My dad prefer Sony than other brand..He know better..Anything u said Daddy..
Along will get a new manual car..Manual duhhh..Guys memang prefer manual..But i KIND A FALL IN LOVE ngan manual car la..sejak blaja drive ni..A few days ago bru je ambik ujian kelayakan,marks atas pagar je.Passing mark 17 ,I got 16..LOL....Hrap2 I will drive better la this weekend klu x kne marah ngan Ustaz lg..Remember Athirah Give singnal but dont make sudden move wait until U see the white line...(only me understand what I'm talking about).

I appreciate it u guys~

Seronoknye..what a day....thanks u guys coz organize a little celebration 4 my birthday..walaupon not exactly during my birthday I really I really appreciate it..Ada,Eman,Ejat,Nanan,Norm,Fadzil..n Muhaithir yg try nak dtg tp xde rezeki nak dtg..its ok..Started from 8 O'CLOCK in the morning we all bergerak ke TC..BUt Ejat was early n very punctual..I am the 1 to blame coz I told him 7.30..but guess what??I'm being a jerk to him..(hate myself)..I just know know that Ada collect RM5 tO BUy some snacks to the beach..n she did'nt ask me to pay any penny (i mean cent).. Gosh u guys are soo sweet...

BTW Ejat I am so damn sorry coz I am being harsh eventhough u r being super nice to me along the day..I can't stop blaming myself..please forgive me..U wait for me since 7.30 in the morning at the beach COZ U KNOW i hate person who concern bout time management but I am the one who being late...sori jat..I am being selfish..
tiring day yet very meaningful to me..x dpt present pon xpe..

I am blind

Normally I am very rasional about how should I act and felt but when it come to love matters..I am the dumb ass that u ever think of...Oh gosh!!Athirah open your eyes..He is not for u..Move on..He already know what u feel and yet still no action.. That's mean..The feeling is NOT mutual..GOt it??!!Takkan nak simbah asid baru nak sedar kot...Wake up!!!Chase other thing other than him... Open your eyes k..He is damn gorgeous guy and u r damn not that pretty girl....

You should just accept the fact that he is not for u.Why???Why I'm still hoping for him..Now I am really blind...If he accept u, u still not gonna be happy coz he just not ready for such commitment..Just friends k...But it's hurt to see him again in front of me when he with someone else...I am nothing for him..Just another girl passing by...Mama is right love someone that love u not someone u love..Why is it too complicated..Why is it I am so sentimental..

Is it too hard to live ur life without couple Athirah??Come on la.. Dont make urself too carried away with this stupid thing..Cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan..that's what happen to me now..I am realise what actually happen to me but when I see his face again, I will..I might return back to him..Guess what?? I am one of the silly girl that will do anything for a guy I really love..which is so dangerous...make urself busy Athirah..

My SPM result~~~

I got 4 A'S 1 B AND 4 C'S...I dont study really hard and my result is almost the same with those who study really hard..Alhamdulillah...At last i can prove to others that I can do it too...and I can survive on my own no matter with whom I get along with...My parents was very happy coz I get the best result among the worst..What I really mean is in my school , students who got 5 A's and above was called to get up on the stage..I'm glad that I got juz 4 A's coz I hate to be on the stage..(what a silly reason)..

My mum said this is the best birthday present she ever got..coz I beat people who looked down on me...But i feel a lil bit sad coz I got A- for my English..I should got A+ to futher my study in English..so I'm quite worry bout that...The second thing is.. I'm gonna missed my family holiday if I got accepted 4 English Foundation.. Specialty of this Family vacation is..my dad will drive across the state..we gonna go to 3 different state if I not mistaken...I dont want to missed that...Juz hoping 4 the best