Now i'm not sure what i'm going to be...

If people ask me what i want to be one day, I will said 'English Teacher'. Guess what?? I'm not sure bout that now coz i think I'm so suck in grammar which is the most basic thing in English. Gosh~ I lost my goal now.My grammar is very week , even my mum's student is better. Sometimes I think I don't meant to be a teacher, there is something else that I should be...Something that I don't figure out what it is...

I juz have to wait for my SPM result and plan my future afterward..I don't know what is my passion??? Am I gonna turn out like my dad?? He studies in business but turn out to be a lecturer in computer. He still having a good job...even though he still studying for pH D. My dad have different story than mine. He is intelligent and really hardworking.

One of the reason I set my goal in teaching field is my mum is a teacher. She kept telling being a teacher is the best job ever. Especially one day I'm gonna have my own family. I'm thinking bout something different but it doesn't seem clear for me at this moment.Maybe I meant to wait and see what heading me..

Missing Mackay

I'm in my house at Malaysia now but my heart and my still left in Mackay...I just need time to get back to reality..my real life. I still missing mum Rosemary Agnes Shanks and cry frequently because thinking of her. Isn't it miracle one day she just someone who didn't expect me to come and suddenly become closer each day like my mum. The biggest different between us getting fade each day for me..different skin colour, language, religion and background doesnt seem a matter.

I missing every single thing I've done with her. Walk to Woolies, chatting with her at the kitchen bar while she cooking, told silly story while she is driving to make her awake along a journey...All those thing is memory..sweetest memory for me... Maybe for her I'm just another exchange student fron foreign country but for me she is my second mum. I need sometime to stop crying everytime I think about her. I never let my parents know that I am crying because I dont want to offence them.

Another thing that I missed is my host brother or you can call them housemate. Irfan and Sean. They just make my day full of joy or maybe uneasy sometimes. Both of them have totally different personality and they have to share a bedroom along our stay there. Can you imagine that? Irfan is mature, same age with me, quite loner (happy to be on his own),intelligent boy, unique person to be exact but I dont have any problem to get along with him. Only one time I felt offended about what he said to me. I already get over it anyway..no big deal..Sean is happy go lucky, like to hang out in my room, love to make make noise (but its doesnt bother me), he wish he have a big brother or sister because he is a 1st child.They have a contrast character. Thank god they never punch each other but had a fight without physical contact once which really freak me out.

Last but not least, Persia..cute little cat who just undergo operation to make sure it doesn't have babies..kittens to be exact...she likes to slapped on Sean's face to wake him up every morning..she likes to scratch and bite Irfan. She just a playful little fellow..I missed every single thing in that house. Michael my host brother used to fold everyone's clothes including my undies..for me its really embarrassing but for them nothing wrong bout that.He gone for exchange to Panama so he like to give some Spanish lingo lesson...especially because mum will leave to Argentina soon if I not mistaken.Really miss them...xoxo

1st morning in Mackay ausie

13 DEC 09-SUNDAY
I woke up at eight, it's already look like 11 a.m 4 me...I have a good sleep on my 1st nyte here..Maybe because of jet lack. Last night we had pumpkin and potatoes with rice. I don't finish my my rice because it was a big amount of it . In the morning we went to the beach having a BBQ . There's Mom (ROSEMARY), Carl, Michael, Irfan, me and Sean. We had meat patty..sounds like krabby patty...but it's not k. Seriously delightful!!! It's halal k...Rosemary really concern what kind of food we had especially us (Irfan & I). Mom's lettuce keep flew away...

We had a dinner at a place called Lighthouse at a place called Marina. It's like a place where all the boats are there. The scenery is awesome...speechless...Mum said there a crocodile in the water so people just go fishing there..not swimming. We had fish & chips at the Lighthouse. The french fries is huge in size. Sam also join us. She is Michael's girlfriend. She is seventeen too and have a same height with me but seem taller because she's wearing high heels. She is blond and have short hair, plus she wearing braces, very cute girl...

what a day....

what a day...pnat mmmg pnat..tp so far best laa.cuma yg x best nyer...coz tgk kwn baek sndiri smoke dpan mate....sedey +ralat+benci smokers.tp nak wat cm ne.... tgk new moon tp x puas aty n ending die....

brg2 dah paking dah....luggage cam nak meletup jew....tp ok kot....berat aty lak nak tggalkan mama....i should feel excited larh....huh...xle bwk laptop larh...nanti kne tahan kat kastam...bla...bla....

td jumpe akmal n the gang kat mega....diowg pon tgk cinema rupenyer....simple day but enjoyable..

living 4 ausie in 8 days

lame gle x jenguk blog nie...bersawang dah...hehe

pejam celik pejam celik...spm dah nak abis dah tinggal satu subjek je lg.. walau pon banyak dugaan..alhamdulillah i can hadle it wisely(yer kew??)

yesterday ajin ah depart ke jepon... happy laa die...dye..bpak sweetnyer adek gue tuh...be4 depart call dulu kakak dye ni nak ckap gudbye n i love u..hihi...mane xnyer 23rd januari next year bru jumpe blik..... klu panjang umor....already miss him....

berat lak hati nak tinggalkan Malaysia ni...ye r engat nak wat xtiviti gle2 ngan kawan2...ada gap 4 ari je be4 fly ke ausie...hmm...sempat 4 new moon hehe...

ntah cukup ke x duit tira nak g sane nie...maklum r shopaholic...xpe r kat sane bru la leh independant..pandai2 nak uruskan diri sendiri...the one that i will really2 miss of coursela my mom...sian die dok dapur sowang2...dah la sorg je anak pompuan...tp nak wat cmne 1 day i have to left her..
from now on i want to think about my future...and stay focus....i want to make my parents proud...thats my no. 1 goal...

love life???left behind dulu la kowt...coz my broken heart still bleeding r...i am trying very hard to act wisely n rasionally...but still pain inside...padan muka tira..love some1 that love u not some1 u love...remember that tira....dont make the same mistake again....

k r xde idea dah nak tulis pe...coz bakat utama bercakap bkan menulis...

juz a reminder

korg2 semua rakyat Malaysia...jgan la buang sampah merata-rata eh....xyah la jd third class mindednyer person..malu r name je islam tp x jaga kebersihan kan...tgok taman perumahan bukit rangin pon cukup la...name je tanah rizab melayu tp sampah merata2....ape salahnyer buang kat tong sampah umah sendiri kan....aku ni mmg agak mementingkan kebersihan alam sekitar...tp aku ckp ni bukan utuk korg je tp utk egtkan diri aku gak....enviromental awareness is important for us....coz number of forest become less each day...aku pon dah menyumbang ke arah polution gak...air-cond berlambak kat umah...CFC tuh....tp why not saling ingat mengingati kan...

susah aty...tp malas...

camne nie...+mate x pnah pass lg...erm...chemistry bru dua tiga kali lulus.... fizik..lg laa atas pagar slalunyer...SPM.... dah dekat nak mampus....my own future is in my own hand...tp... malasnyer....this is not me...slalunyer time exam bsar i'm the 1 on earth yg paling risau n menggelabah...tp sijil paling penting kali nie....cam x risau jer...mane la cm tu...menempah maut utk mase depan je...ATHIRAH!!!!!wake up !!!! dah la trial less than a month jer lg....OMG..there must be sumthing wrong with me....nak kate salah pilih kawan...kawan sendiri pon dah x online sekerap aku...nak kate mabuk bercinta???...pakwe pon aku xda...nak kate mencari cinta??? aku bahagia je hidup single...ntah ape yg x kene ngan aku pon aku xtau....