Turning 9teen

 ni wish card dari KUNIM~bermakna ok...tq2

 Bella nyer speech menusuk sgt~thank u for helping me to change into a better person..make me realize about the fact of life

 Roomate ku syg sgt suke melihat ku pki shawl lalu die memberi ku ini~ TQ SGT2 ROOMATE KU YANG HENSEM

i KEPT ALL THE WISH AND PRAYS FROM U GUYS

XOXO

Happy Birthday to me ~ and this is not my birthday cake.lol

This year is my 1st time celebrating my birthday without my family around. I am kind a sad because this year would be a final year for me to called as a teenager.

Thank you to IDA + BELLA + KUNIM + FEGHUZ  for buying a cake for me and a small celebration even its actually not a perfect time in term of having extra money. I really appreciate your sacrifices. IDA ... tq for the maybelline lip gloss and be the first person to wish my birthday. Plus the funny story behind getting the lip gloss for me..

The real story is u said that u have to buy something important at HKS (Hok KEE Seng) Market. Then u asked KUNIM to go with you and I said I want to go to because I need to buy a bread. At that moment I have no idea that you want to buy a present for me so I just follow you guys. After I get the bread then u bought the lip gloss. haha

tq once again.

Thank you soo much coz u guys get me a cake..and the photo of my real cake is corrupted :(

so I cant share the picture. The wish on the cake is 'BE MATURE'. xley bla... am I too childish?? sob3 Its ok I'll try my best to change k?

I cried at the morning of my birthday because I received text message from my mum in form of pray. She said how much grateful she feels to have me as her daughter. The only daughter. (EVERYTIME i READ HER TEXT i'LL CRY) I cry in Arabic class this morning and in Edu Psychology class. tHANKX TO pROF zUL FOR NOT HAVING A QUIZ today :D that is a gift from u to me unintentionally...
Thankx to everyone who wish and pray for me in Facebook. eVEN U guys dont give any present, ur willness to wish n pray for is enough already,coz for me a birthday is not all about gifts (tp klu dapat sape x suke an..hi2) Looking forward to celebrate my birthday with family back in Kuantan...xoxo

and this is not my cup cake ;

ps:still waiting for u to wish for my birthday..eeee geramnyer asal x wish2

ARR xoxo

These days I’ve been a kind of person that cried whenever she wants. The tears just came out. It is not because my tears are cheap but I’ve being really sensitive lately. For instance, at my study table in uni, I paste my brother’s picture on the wall. To see him growing up in front of me and become such a successful teenager, someone I did not expecting him to be, make me feel touched. My tears dropped automatically everytime I sit at my study table. He also inspired me in many ways. I’m not bragging here, it just that I see him changing becoming a better person in term of intelligence, attitude, and awareness. I wish I can change myself in those terms. I’m talking about my younger brother here. I am actually being more sensitive than my mom (mama too bad I becoming more like you each day) ps: I am proud to becoming like you. He is a big portion of my life. We grew up together and gone through a lot of thing together. I can’t imagine when the day he already continued studies to the next level where he is no longer at home when I got home.

As he grows older he expresses his feelings less. Sometimes I wonder what did he felt inside. I still remember the day we stayed with our aunt family because our parents went to Mecca for Hajj. Whenever I cried he will cry and whenever I cried he will do the same thing. Look~ (MY TEARS AUTOMATICALLY CAME OUT). He is my best friend ever even he did hurt me sometimes; (I hurt him too). He is irreplaceable. Nowadays it is hard to share every single thing with him since he is busy with his commitment, once in a while I’ll went home but he always out for extra classes and other important things. Everytime I heard someone complement him I feel very touched. I am totally sensitive than my mom ryte now. Everyone that has been known him or being around him will be pleasure to met a person like him. I wish he will always be with me until now.  I wrote this doesn’t mean that I love him more than my other brother. It just something that what I feel right now.

I wish him all the best for his SPM this year. And I love u AHMAD RAZIN.

sesuatu yang saya nak sangat buat

Kali ni nak tulis dalam bm plak eh. Sejak dari sekolah lagi tyra nak sangat wat keje amal macam ziarah rumah orang tua dan rumah anak yatim. Time skolah dulu tyra ada ambik subjek sivik jd dpt la keje kene brsihkan masjid. Tyra ckp ni bukan sebab rase diri baik ke ape, tp lepas kite beramal n buat sesuatu kebaikan dgn rela hati, ada satu perasaan yang kite x boley ungkapkan dengan kata2.Satu perasaan yg puas tau.
Macam impian jadi kenyataan sbb dapat melawat rumah anak yatim Darul Falah kat sini. Nasib baik join ko Rakan Kaunselor. Alhamdulillah..Nak share gambar je la..

ni anak2 yatim dalam group tyra. Sebenarnyer tyra xde group coz tyra AJK..tp main masuk je. Nasib baik adik2 ni sporting.

Ni plak kami plajar UNISZA yg brbeza course tp semua ahli rakan kaunselor. Korg best..

Ni Ibnu Hafiz. Adik yang tyra dapat. Tau ape impian die.. Die nak hafal 30 juzu' Al-quran. Umur die 16 tahun . Die bagi kerjasama yang baik untuk semua aktiviti. Akak doakan yang terbaik untuk Ibnu. Bila berada kat Darul Falah ni tyra rase insaf n lebih bersyukur dengan ape yang tyra dah ade. Memang patut sekali sekala kita berada dalam kesusahan supayaa kite dapat mengingatkan diri kita. Harap2 tyra dapat peluang macam ni lagi.

is that person is me?

MC...... short form for master of ceremony which mean someone who responsible to make an event run smoothly in term of presenting the ceremony or occasion. When I was small I am amazed and admired...more to wonder...how on earth a person manage and have guts to speak in front of hundreds or million people who attending the event. Did he/she memorize every single thing that he/she will speak? At that moment I already said to myself, I will never be that brave and talented to attract people attention while I am speaking in front. no..no..not in a million years.

We can’t predict the future. One day...BOOM~ I am MC for my cousins wedding.* now she's have a baby in her belly (congrats~) What I thought that time, I’m sure there’s no harm because it is just in front of my family members and future family members (my cousin’s husband’s family). Piece of cake..small matter..That was a day I lost all my thought about never talk in public. Even I was a prefect but I never handle an assembly. NEVER. Talking in public just destroy me. But after that particular event everything was change. This crazy thought starts to linger in my mind. ‘No harm Tyra it just a speaking session, you love to speak, but this time you talk to many people. Just less than 200 people in a room. You will not regret it because it might be an extra value about you compare to others.’ But if I looked back, I think I just embarrassed myself. *thanked got that wedding ceremony going smoothly. So there was everything started.

TESL Annual Dinner 2011 unFORTUNATELY...I was responsible to be one of the MC. I really hope I was not ruin the event. I hope I am not too DULL...too HAPPENING...extra ENERGATIC... i AM LEARNING FROM MISTAKES..Trust me not everyone can be in that place..I was the unlucky one.. I should consider myself lucky ryte? At least I already tried my best. Gave all out that night. *even I was not behave appropriately. I’ll definitely improve myself in future. Am I born to be MC?? IDTS... I just not afraid to try something new and have inner conflict with myself :p *liar

 ps: The theme that I try to bring out in me is pop princess but it turned out to be rock princess. spoilt~

Life.... expect the unexpected

My course mate has questioned this statement, how to expect something that we don’t expected?? The true meaning of this ‘quote; which actually I take from AFS Intercultural Programme, the non government organization that I dedicate my life to, (dedicate la sgt setakat volunteer je pon) btw actually in my uni I think the amount of people that recognize the organisation, we can count with our finger. Its ok, you guys can google about it.

The example of unexpected things that happened to me is I just noticed if I said that I hate something or someone, for sure at the end I’ll end up liking it. YEAH~

These thing keep on happening to me seriously, maybe it is some way for GOD telling me to watch out my words. (so tyra watch your words). Another example, I said once I said ‘Like a G6’ is a rubbish song but in the end it becomes my message tone. DUHH~

In some event, we think he/she is a right person for us but after quite sometimes he/she got nothing to do with you anymore. That’s happen in any kind relationship. When this happened there is no one to blame. It just not a win win situation. For me I would say I have gone through this sort of thing many times but still I never give up in relationship coz that how we learn. True it hurts you a lot if the relationship did not last. How to handle it?? Just time can cured everything.

That’s why I hold this quote, the opposite of LOVE is not HATE but IGNORE. No wonder I love ‘Ignorance’ by Paramore so much. * xde kaitan

Like now I am taking TESL, don’t be shock if someday I turn up to be a business woman. *the statement is too ridiculous

Or fashion designer perhaps.

I know whatever decision I made doesn’t seem to be good in everyone eyes but until when should I lived based on what people wants? So let me make a decision which I think good for everyone. (even what I think sometime doesn’t make sense but let me k?) *mane ade org nak bace pon

Wow!! I wrote quite long this time..

Note to myself

Truth sometimes hurt

27^th February 2011, 2.07 a.m

The moment I feel terrible

No other human being I hate the most

other than myself right now.

What I’ve learn and what I want to change is quite a number

But it doesn’t matter..

It is for my own good..

For my future, living around people who have feelings

Hey you!

The one who wrote this..

What all of them had done to you is to give you a lesson

Being a jerk will make your life misery

Stop talking like you are the most brilliant person on earth

Coz you are nothing close to that

Even your eyes swollen cause by tears

There’s nothing to be forgiven

You hurt people that love you

That care about you

That always be there for you

Then, what that’s makes you??

A person??

Let me tell you..

Life is not all about you

You don’t have to act childish to attracts peoples attention

Coz u juz make them noxious when they see you

Do you like that??

So, think like an adult

It is not impossible to change

It is not about people around you isolate you

It is about your annoying attitude

Watch your mouth

Not everyone bear to listen every single thing that came out from it

Your brain is there to be used

Being yourself doesn’t mean you have to make yourself look like a fool

Coz you used to it

Think about what people might think about you

Hello people are everywhere to judge

So..wake up!!

HYPOCRITE ~

HYPOCRITE~

I have problem with this word since ever. The precise definition of this annoying word is a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, especially a person whose actions belie stated beliefs or in easier word pretenders. I have no idea why this thing has bother me for ages.

In my opinion hypocrite is a phase for someone to improve him/herself in order to be a better person without harming anyone (unless there are people are too concern about others a.k.a busybody). If someone have a good intention to change his/her attitude because he/she not being or act as a good person before, does it call hypocrite??

OR

I f someone just change to a whole new environment and try to get along which involving adaptation, does it called hypocrite??

OR

Trying to get along with everyone with different kind of attitudes, background and social status in order to have a good relation, does it called hypocrite??

A friend have told me that, bottom line is ignores what other said about you if you do nothing wrong. You’re not a hypocrite if u did something for your own good.

DON’T BE AFRAID TO CHANGE FOR BETTER ~