is that person is me?

MC...... short form for master of ceremony which mean someone who responsible to make an event run smoothly in term of presenting the ceremony or occasion. When I was small I am amazed and admired...more to wonder...how on earth a person manage and have guts to speak in front of hundreds or million people who attending the event. Did he/she memorize every single thing that he/she will speak? At that moment I already said to myself, I will never be that brave and talented to attract people attention while I am speaking in front. no..no..not in a million years.

We can’t predict the future. One day...BOOM~ I am MC for my cousins wedding.* now she's have a baby in her belly (congrats~) What I thought that time, I’m sure there’s no harm because it is just in front of my family members and future family members (my cousin’s husband’s family). Piece of cake..small matter..That was a day I lost all my thought about never talk in public. Even I was a prefect but I never handle an assembly. NEVER. Talking in public just destroy me. But after that particular event everything was change. This crazy thought starts to linger in my mind. ‘No harm Tyra it just a speaking session, you love to speak, but this time you talk to many people. Just less than 200 people in a room. You will not regret it because it might be an extra value about you compare to others.’ But if I looked back, I think I just embarrassed myself. *thanked got that wedding ceremony going smoothly. So there was everything started.

TESL Annual Dinner 2011 unFORTUNATELY...I was responsible to be one of the MC. I really hope I was not ruin the event. I hope I am not too DULL...too HAPPENING...extra ENERGATIC... i AM LEARNING FROM MISTAKES..Trust me not everyone can be in that place..I was the unlucky one.. I should consider myself lucky ryte? At least I already tried my best. Gave all out that night. *even I was not behave appropriately. I’ll definitely improve myself in future. Am I born to be MC?? IDTS... I just not afraid to try something new and have inner conflict with myself :p *liar

 ps: The theme that I try to bring out in me is pop princess but it turned out to be rock princess. spoilt~

Life.... expect the unexpected

My course mate has questioned this statement, how to expect something that we don’t expected?? The true meaning of this ‘quote; which actually I take from AFS Intercultural Programme, the non government organization that I dedicate my life to, (dedicate la sgt setakat volunteer je pon) btw actually in my uni I think the amount of people that recognize the organisation, we can count with our finger. Its ok, you guys can google about it.

The example of unexpected things that happened to me is I just noticed if I said that I hate something or someone, for sure at the end I’ll end up liking it. YEAH~

These thing keep on happening to me seriously, maybe it is some way for GOD telling me to watch out my words. (so tyra watch your words). Another example, I said once I said ‘Like a G6’ is a rubbish song but in the end it becomes my message tone. DUHH~

In some event, we think he/she is a right person for us but after quite sometimes he/she got nothing to do with you anymore. That’s happen in any kind relationship. When this happened there is no one to blame. It just not a win win situation. For me I would say I have gone through this sort of thing many times but still I never give up in relationship coz that how we learn. True it hurts you a lot if the relationship did not last. How to handle it?? Just time can cured everything.

That’s why I hold this quote, the opposite of LOVE is not HATE but IGNORE. No wonder I love ‘Ignorance’ by Paramore so much. * xde kaitan

Like now I am taking TESL, don’t be shock if someday I turn up to be a business woman. *the statement is too ridiculous

Or fashion designer perhaps.

I know whatever decision I made doesn’t seem to be good in everyone eyes but until when should I lived based on what people wants? So let me make a decision which I think good for everyone. (even what I think sometime doesn’t make sense but let me k?) *mane ade org nak bace pon

Wow!! I wrote quite long this time..

Note to myself

Truth sometimes hurt

27^th February 2011, 2.07 a.m

The moment I feel terrible

No other human being I hate the most

other than myself right now.

What I’ve learn and what I want to change is quite a number

But it doesn’t matter..

It is for my own good..

For my future, living around people who have feelings

Hey you!

The one who wrote this..

What all of them had done to you is to give you a lesson

Being a jerk will make your life misery

Stop talking like you are the most brilliant person on earth

Coz you are nothing close to that

Even your eyes swollen cause by tears

There’s nothing to be forgiven

You hurt people that love you

That care about you

That always be there for you

Then, what that’s makes you??

A person??

Let me tell you..

Life is not all about you

You don’t have to act childish to attracts peoples attention

Coz u juz make them noxious when they see you

Do you like that??

So, think like an adult

It is not impossible to change

It is not about people around you isolate you

It is about your annoying attitude

Watch your mouth

Not everyone bear to listen every single thing that came out from it

Your brain is there to be used

Being yourself doesn’t mean you have to make yourself look like a fool

Coz you used to it

Think about what people might think about you

Hello people are everywhere to judge

So..wake up!!

HYPOCRITE ~

HYPOCRITE~

I have problem with this word since ever. The precise definition of this annoying word is a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, especially a person whose actions belie stated beliefs or in easier word pretenders. I have no idea why this thing has bother me for ages.

In my opinion hypocrite is a phase for someone to improve him/herself in order to be a better person without harming anyone (unless there are people are too concern about others a.k.a busybody). If someone have a good intention to change his/her attitude because he/she not being or act as a good person before, does it call hypocrite??

OR

I f someone just change to a whole new environment and try to get along which involving adaptation, does it called hypocrite??

OR

Trying to get along with everyone with different kind of attitudes, background and social status in order to have a good relation, does it called hypocrite??

A friend have told me that, bottom line is ignores what other said about you if you do nothing wrong. You’re not a hypocrite if u did something for your own good.

DON’T BE AFRAID TO CHANGE FOR BETTER ~

Brother's day~

We usually heard about mother's day, fathers day.. I am celebrating fathers day.. For me I am the luckiest sister on earth since I have the coolest brother ever whom cannot be replace and I love them so much, (although sometimes they such a pain in the butt). I have a eldest brother and 2 younger brother. The 1st one is 20 years old, i'm in the middle the 3rd one is taking his SPM this year but now he is in Australia and the youngest one is taking his UPSR this year.

In school days, I wish I have a sister but when I grow older I am so grateful that I have none of them (in laws in future is acceptable)lol. Each of my brothers have the quality that I wish will have in my future husband (deep thinker). Along a.k.a Adi nak agi his facebook name have a intelligent brain + looks+concern+tough physiques. He know how much I love to be pampered and I'm the only girl that he can hug (hihi). He done a lot for me although he such a teaser when I was a small girl but he take care of me whenever my parents was not around. When he entered a boarding school I was the one who devastated and cried a lot.

Ajin a.k.a Uda (name after he got younger brother). I love to call him Jiji. After my eldest brother left for boarding school, he was the one who always be with me. He both have a sensitive heart. As he growing older as a teenager, we shared a lot of problems and stories since we school at the same place. He is good looking+muscular (skinny)+clever+joker. He started to act like my elder brother ,being protective and advisor to me. For a start when I register in uni, I feel very lost without him telling me what's good or bad. I cried a lot too when he leave for Australia since i'm the one who being left that time (normally i'm the one who leave). I sleep with his sweater till now.HURRY UP COME BACK!!

Last but not least, the chubby one. Raims a.k.a ammi. We argue a lot bcoz he's the youngest 1 and i'm the only girl. He started to annoy me like all of his brother when he reach 10. Our parents can't stand my immature behavior and I can't stand when he irritating me. So, I started to act like a sister to him and when only both of us left in the house, we started to get along well. He is hardworking (in certain works), considerate and never forget about his siblings.

Bottom line is... I love all of them just the way they are. When I on my own now I started to feel how much I miss them and I'm not afraid to admit that How much I love them. LOVE U GUYS~

hair clips ~

Suddenly~ x tahan klu tgk hairclips skrg ni..lg2 klu yg kiut2...bukan nyer klip kat rambut tp kat shawl..x sihat kan?? x kisah la..asalkan sy happy an..hihi..jd akan mengumpulkan byk2 hairclips afterwards...klu lah ade Marienyer hair clips kan..klu ade jumpe inform la ek...

2nd sem..

Beginning of 2011~Hurmm...too many things we do..since class does not started yet.. assignment had not been given yet...problems did not occur yet....nothing much to say i juz wanna put a few picture that i not uploaded at my fb... hee~
BTW I already wear my 1st high heel..4 and a half inch..thanked god i've started to get use to it..a'ai call it Victoria Beckham shoes,,HOHO..or my mum call it 'kasut yg boleh bunuh org'..Honestly, after walking in that shoes for a whole day, my back strained.. what an experience..i am killing my own backbones..

If in high school I like to take photos ADAEMAN...but now in uni..there is new couple.. NEDDIQ(suke cantum name owg)...cute2..tp klu diorg gdoh..hurmm...extraordinary couple sket diorg nih..x pnah lg jmpe couple cam ni..tp Siddiq tu baik la even die hot tempered..

We already plan about our trip to JB..money$$$$$$..huh...which really bothering me ryte now...I have to do something so thati'll be more wiser in money matters..i just realise that I aam a SHOPPAHOLICS~ JUZ LIKE rEBECCA bLOOMWOOD....BUT i DONt have creadit card like her...