Just cut my hair~

I decided to have a new look for new year but still not sure how should i cut it. Salon??? nope..This time i will cut it by myself..Normally I ask my dad to cut for me..So..i've thinking to keep the length and give some fringe in front of my forehead.. but i already did that style twice..when I was little n when i'm in form3..
since i got wavy hair that style wont do..but who cares??
its like i have Vanessa hair and want to do Selena's look..I t doesn't make sense ryte??

Guess what I already did..make myself look like 5 years old me..My parents agree with me..I look exactly when i was 5..but this time I am taller n darker..unfortunately there was an accident..not obviously seen..with wavy hair like this the result will not be as I wish.That's fine coz the one to blame is me.

By the way, it doesn't matter coz I am wearing head cover in public but does matter for self satisfaction tho...my mum said this kind of look will face problem when i want to ware head cover..u know fringe in front of forehead.let be~

It's been a while~

I have a blog but I rarely post anything..So basicly I will post according to my mood.. I am so happy coz juz now I got news from my brother in Mackay. He said he dont met my host mum yet.I dunno how to express how much I miss him. Its embarrassing to admit that I sleep with his AFS sweater on his bed and wears his shirt while I'm still at home.

He let me to bring that sweater to uni, I love all of my brothers. Everytime they left me I will cry but if I am the one who leave, I wont drop a single tears which means 'I can leave u but u can't leave me. No wonder I have no guts to give a shot in a relationship. I am not tough enough to be disappointed.Thanks to u along coz lend your hug to keep me calm while i'm crying at the airport. Thanks coz u dont feel embarrassed
to walk with me that time.

This coming 24 Jan will have 2 important things for me. Along's 21st birthday n Ajin's arrival. YEAY!!!! Too bad i wont be around that time.

Raimi thank you for not crying. If you did, thankx for not crying in front of me , coz it will make me cry too which is not good. I had major headache after crying.

cAr~

Ade ura2 mengatakan En Ruzaini nak bg toy baru kat cik Athirah...hee
Tp ura2 je la kan...sb En Ruzaini dpt vroom2 bru n nak give a way City nyer...
Cik Athirah x la mengharap sgt (tipu2)...toy ape2 pon boley (myvi pink ok gak)~demand giler
x kisah kete pape tp klu ley nak kaler pink...hihi
viva pink ok jgak..tp En Ruzaini kate..kancil jew..x kisah la kete pape pon... asalkan kete... sem 2 nanti xyah naik bas dah..(menggunung tiggi harapan)

Athirah= keep on smiling although she is suffering

Yup...I am trying soo hard to keep on pretending nothing is wrong with me..but actually....i am fooling myself...i dont want to sacrifice anymore..I wanna know how does it feel if someone love u...only u...I want to know how does it feel to be no 1 in someone's..how to stop hurting yourself Athirah..stop doing that..u have been doing that ever since...u deserve to be happy instead of sacrificing yourself..stop feeling sorry...

I have to realize that..sacrifice is not always another term of love...How to avoid from loving someone who is belong to someone else....Athirah..u are not like that.. u know what is right and wrong..u always be reasonable..please dont repeat the same mistake that u have did...open ur eyes...dont let urself getting hurt again,,u deserve to be happy...

Feeling down -..-

Dunno why lately I felt emotionally unstable.. I should not feel that way coz I got the best people in the world around me..Although somehow I feel they kind a make a distance from me...I hope i do nothing wrong.. Yeah a few people that used to be closed to me started to make a huge size of great wall of China in our relationship. I dont mind as long as u happy.
My performance is going down too..Recently we got quiz for English Proficiency .. I can imagine how Ms Alia will react, 'T-rex I am so gonna kill u!!'.For my classmates I am not as bright as u guys thought.U guys can categorize me as one of the 'lumpy' person u've ever known.
I dont't mind if u gonna kill me but I have to do better for my own future not for you. It just grammar Athirah..
Cant wait to be home and be pampered by Babah n Mama after a long time living in an independent daily life here.
I have to get use to life where no one give attention to u..I have to start being a grown ups..yup for sure..
I am so confused whether should I join Kesenian club or not..I want to but I cant.. that's the simplest reason..Dont feel like writing actually.

0_0 me being tough

I'm not getting lucky all the time.I had my bad day yesterday but I am grateful coz I know that ALLAH love me that's why i faced so many difficulties in a day.Start from the morning, there was a PTPTN N BIMB thing to settle.I just realise that i just have a copy of my mum slip gaji, so what i did was leave the long queue n rush to the library to photostat it.When I return back to DABS my fren Ika told me that the form just need a only a copy of a backup document, such a waste.Its ok~ think positive Athirah that is ur exercise for today.
The session with PTPTN a lil bit disorganised coz people cut queue.Those people have no integrity at all, such a selfish.During my turn....disaster happen..my form have a liquid paper mark so..it was REJECTED..the machine can't scan form with liquis paper marks...I almost cry but big girls dont cry ryte?? I rush to the library to print out those forms again which cost me RM4.40.... It's all my fault:(
Back in DABS...I call my dad n ask him is ryte for me to go straight away to the counter or should I queue again and he said this time I should be selfish coz I have a bus to catch..being selfish is soo not me i feel anxious bout what people would say bout my act...I sit near to Ika n Mia n told them bout my story, both of them ask me to go to the counter straight away but I still dont feel good bout doing it,So what I did was talk to the person who was suppose to be next (dealing with ptptn staff) asking for permission to go before her...But she said she also in a rush coz she have a class..negotiation does'nt work...so do it hard way..forget bout what they said..i went straight away to that akak n she still remember me n ask me to sit with a smiling face..I love u la kakak..U are the best although u asked me to print back the forms before..
PTPTN SETTLED~:D
My second scene was..I missed my bus..and it was not my mistakes..the bus wrote nothing bout the destination..i bought ticket for trans so there’s no reason i ride city liner..arrghh..I have no idea y Trgganu Terminal have such a disorganized system..RM18.90 gone just like that... so i bought another ticket at 5.30pm which turn out to be 6.30p.m.Guess what my seat no.??? 38 but the seat in the bus is just 32...(doent make any sense)I have right to complain but I am too tired to bother. So I were stand for a while..thanked god there was a gentleman that gave me a seat..Although he was trying to flirt..At the end we had a chat and he made to get my no...silly me

Gonna leave this house soon

So...only 2 more sleep left..then off me go...I hope I will fit in well.. ari ni dapat good news..Tabung Haji call n inform that our family ley g haji ujung thun ni..Alhamdulillah...so my preparation...i will be a better person n bykkan usaha dekatkan diri dgn Allah n bertaubat..Heaps of sin i already made before..should ask 4 forgiveness...I dunno what i feel now..sleepy for sure..

BTW..Kak dayah dah balik dr Jordan..huhu...hepi2..xtau nak tulis pe dah...sedey la nak tggalkan umah...nak bwk ke x Marie kepala besar tu ek??Hmmm