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Unplanned

2012-01-23T04:18:00.000-08:00

Tatkala Mahasiswa/siswi baru dapat baucar 1Malaysia, we were try to figure out how to make it big *baucher je pon. At 1^st ingat nak spend those vouchers kat Mesra Mall but then we all decided to go to Kelantan for instead. Woohoo~ Padahal baru je g ngan Tiha ari tu, it’s not where you goes matter, it’s with whom you go with, am I right? This last minute plan won’t happen without these awesome people (BELLA, KUNIM,FEY &IDA). Why am I so excited about this? Sebab kan sy ni seorang yang sangat rigid and particular, when it comes to do something spontaneous….saya pon jakun la ( jakun tu ulu or rusa masuk kampong ^0^)

Kami sewa kete kancil manual je, driving alternately (BELLA N KUNIM the drivers) since I’m not competence enough to drive manual cars. Lol

Mula2 ingat nak balik hari je but then it turn out to be 2 days and 1 night trip, thankx to Mama Kunim sbb sudi bayarkan sewa kete. THANK YOU MAK CIK. The journey heading to KB was…tooo much pit stop but no one yell about it. Berhenti isi minyak sambil minum kopi, brunch

( breakfast+lunch), and another stesen minyak.

Sampai KB je straight away g umah Kunim tukar kete kancil ngan kelisa mama die. Sian mama die selaalu tinggal sorang since ayah die keje jauh.

Then we spend one whole day at KB Mall. X-tra time at Popular Bookstore. Geram tau, I’ve already grab few novels then suddenly I’ve been told that only ilmiah form of books are valid for the voucher. I spend RM 100 (voucher forms) most on A.V.A ‘s stuff a.k.a teaching aids(^^,). We split after we all done with books and stationaries. Ida and I lingered around ladies outlet to find her cardigan and bummed into Bella afterwards and heading to Secret Recipes (cheese cake craving).

Ala- ala KB Mall nak tutup kami pon pergi hunt for place to dipper(dinner + supper) *ske aty aku je wat clipping baru. Sementara cari tempat makan, jalan-jalan kat airport and UMK dengan perut yang lapar ( xlapar sgt coz dah belasah cheesecake earlier).Actually the reason why boleh sampai airport and UMK was somebody is looking for a perfect place to take a pee.HAHA

One of crazy thing we did was going to this fancy look Thai restaurant and ordered only drinks. Waiter kat ctu budak lepasan SPM redha je kene sakat. Perut kembung ngan various type of drinks yang dicampur- campurkan. * pening perut masing2. Last2 end up makan kat EDDLEE FRIED CHICKEN.

Afterwards, we all went to PCB or Pantai Cahaya Bulan to be precise. Monsoon season so the wave is quite high and strong wind. Then jalan2 kat sekitar Bandar KB before we go to the final place Wakaf Che Yeh which is situated a stone throw away from Kunim’s house. Tawaf beberape kali kat ctu, sgt2 x selesa coz guys there suke tease any girls yang lalu lalang kat ctu. Malam tu dengan serba kepenatan kami tgk Running Man sambil mkn kerang. What a good thing to eat before having a good night sleep.

The next day, we have to leave before 8 untuk kejar waktu sewa kete. Kunim beli Nasi Kak Wok * betol ke tu namenye early in the morning tatkala kami masih nyenyak. Reluctantly leaving Kunim’s house we heading back to KT. Kenape reluctant? Sbb kene back to reality weekend is over…. *sounds like school kids.

On the way balik, tibe2 jumpe rumah Makcik Ida yang mane rumah tu sgt besar ye. Kami pon singgah kejap makn cempedak goreng and tgk baby Ayra anak sedare sepupu Ida. Mak Sedare Ida tu pon selalu tinggal sorg coz hubby die keje jauh. X sorang la coz she still got daughters around who still in school. Continue our journey and stop at our 2^nd pit stop Pantai Irama. Spend a few mb from my camera memory and sleep a few minutes after we left the beach. I had a lot of fun :D

Trip to Kelantan (for a 3rd time)

2012-01-03T22:04:00.000-08:00

Last couple of weeks I went to Kelantan with Mekda,Tiha & Aidah. I've been there twice already but this time without my family. From MBKT kitorg naik bas kul 9.00 a.m, sgt trajis ye coz seat kami kat belakang skali * u can imagine along the journey kitorg melambung2 kat belakang ^0^. Interesting fact : The only guy on the bus is a driver. (conclusion~ Guys dont take early tickets unless it emergency) -------> bajet ms know everything. Bas yang kami naik tu terkandas in the middle of traffic light!!!! Nasib baik dah dekat ngan KB, jd kakak Tiha ambik kami kat tempat kejadian. Sangat cuak ye di situ sebab ade fire spark kt enjin bas.

Back to the story, we stayed at Tiya's house which is located at Pasir Mas. Rupa2 nye rumah Tiha dah byk kali dah kami lalu juz xtau je yg tu umah die. Tiha ade adorable little niece name die Alisya (xtau la btol ke x eja). Kakak Tiha la yang bwk kami berjalan2 dgn Myvi oren yg cute.
Lepas zohor on the day we arrived (less than 3 hours KT~KB), we went to Rantau Panjang. Keh beli tudung utk mama keh dan keh of course (keh=saya)

Plannye that nyte nak g somewhere else tp disebabkan kepenatan yg x boleh dibendung, kami tido sampai kul 9 kot... Cukoopp x manis,sgt segan dgn family Tiha. krooohhh....krooohhh

Next day, we went to KB Mall. That was my 1st time being there. X sangka byk sgt Kpop wannabe ek kat ctu, indeed these kind of species are everywhere tp kat ctu cam ramai sgt. Kejutan budaya sket kat ctu. Kakak Tiha treat us lunch on that day. During night, we went to Wakaf Che Yeh. Teringat last time shopping kat situ ngan mama. Mekda n I tgh mood nakal that nyte, we keep on playing 'game' that only we know..ssshhhhh..lol
Malam tu gerimis je, nasib baik x lebat hujan. Seronok jalan2 sampai pagi kot, can imagine how tired Kakak Tiha felt. Naxt day dah balik~
Balik nanak!!!!!

Sepanjang sepeninggalan kami kat rumah Tiha, kami di hiburkan dengan keletah Alisya. Die ske tanye, mintak tlg buang kulit limau, dah la muke cam Cik Su die, adorable sgt~
Pg tu melawat umah nenek sedara Tiha kat belakang rumah je. Jumpe anak sepupu Tiha, personally I think she is beautiful and look mature even she juz finished her SPM. My 1st impression,I thought she was married coz she's holding a baby.huhu
Our ticket was at 5 p.m. Do u thinking what i'm thinking? YES~ still got time to shopping *at least window shopping.
Jalan2 + snap photos and sempat lg grab a pair of wedges sebelom naik bas..hehe..
I love this journey so much, we never stop talk about it when we back in campus..huhu
Thank you sgt kat family Tiha yang sudi bwk kami jalan2, bg makan, sediakan tmpat tdo, rase cam family dah. Next trip tyra nak bwk korg jalan2 ke Kuantan plak..Jom start menabung for next trip...

sharing is caring...caring is loving

2012-01-03T09:32:00.001-08:00

Assalamualaikum >..<
I know my cook is not that awesome but no harm to share. My family and friends said kek batik saye buat sedap..(no attention to brag) huhu
Basicly everyone can make a delightful kek batik.

First thing first,

~~INGREDIENTS~~

1 packet of MARIE biscuit

250g butter

1/2 cup milo & cocoa

1 cup of sugar

1 cup of condensed milk

5 eggs

~~STEPS~~

Melt butter in the heating pot and add sugar. Then stir it until the butter and sugar mix well. (mind me wrote this in English)

when u melt your butter and add sugar + condensed milk,
it looks like this

2. Pour condensed milk into the pot (it will turn out like the picture above)

this is my secret weapon to get even mixture

here comes the tricky part...

3. Put eggs one by one. (If u beat the eggs in low speed ur eggs will be 'scrambled') Therefore, I use my secret weapon *above picture.

save ur energy washing extra bowl, juz combine cocoa with milo

4) Add in cocoa n milo (no harm put both at the same time). ps: some people sieve the cocoa n milo but for me,naaaahhh~

5 cute eggs

it's vitaminised , healthier choice

crash the biscuits and put into the mixture

5) Remove from heat (basicly juz turn off the heat) and put those crashed biscuits. * patah2 kan je tau jgn hancurkan

it will turn out like this, sometimes ur chocolate might turn out
more milky (this 1 not really)

6) Let it cool down to room temperature and put it in the frige. Advisable to put it in a container and press it so that it become compact so that when we cut it, it wont fall apart.

GOOD LUCK !!

2011-12-20T02:50:00.000-08:00

Happy sweet 9teen Ms Al-Jufry the 4th a.k.a Sh. Farida Syed Abd Rahim. Untung la this year celebrate birthday 2 days in row kan. I like to list few things...ready???HAHA *evil laugh

How I met u?

During Minggu 1 siswa I saw you at DABS.

1st impression?

Tomeynye die mesti Sharifah, hidung mancung semacam je, budak course ape ek?

What I dont like about you.

During 1st semester you always said ‘silau’ when u met me..x suke2

Tau la kite pakai braces kan.

You in 3 words.

Gorgeous, manja and pending :p

yet sgt pandai ye

5 THINGS THAT U NEED TO KNOW!!

It’s a blessed to have you as a friend + sister + rakan se’manja’
You’re not just pretty from the outside.
I am so grateful when I realize I always have you.
Even we are not hanging out 24/7, we know we have each other.
Thank you for take care of me when I was sick and be there when I am feeling down.

SPEECH

I hope this frienship + sisterhood lasts forever. Whatever ups and downs that come between us will makes us stronger. I dont have flesh and blood sister but having you is a blessed. You know you can tell me anything because for me there’s no judging in this relationship.Don't bother what people said about you because you are fine just the way you are. Thank you for standing beside me when worlds walks away and being my friend. Real friend.

Saiyyaratun

2011-12-13T09:17:00.000-08:00

Suddenly I was thinking about how much I need a car for next semester~ How much I need a car for next semester? How am I necessarily need to have a car? As far as I know, next semester will be a year where all of us have practicum. I am quite aware pros & cons about me having a car. ALL sorts of problem might occur despite of makes my life in campus easier. I heard from seniors, to have a car in semester 5 is a bless because there are a lot of advantages

peugeot 207..mampu dream je la kan..since I was in high school I dream for this car

# SENIORS OPINION
- No need to wake up early so that by 6.30 in the morning u are ready to leave for school.
-Plenty spaces to bring all the A.V.A
-Easy to go back to school for cocurriculum (if u dont have a car, u have to stay at school until
evening)

eh comelnye awk di atas..lala~

#MY PROS
-Easy to go to school (by anytime be4 the school starts)
-Can place my stuff in car (in case I left something, I can return to campus)
-Taught me to be responsible, wise in spending money (having car is a huge responsible)
- Collect knowledge relates to car thingy

#the cons
- I'll be in a hard situation where I have a lot of friend, choosing who I should bring with. Defending facts: for practicum we will be seperated, 3 person each school *wink2
-Borrowing/renting???? Huge NO * hard to refuse if someone ask but this is the time I have to hold on with my principle
-Finding x-tra money to support living+car

I wrote all this thing on my own but still the reason to have it is not strong enough.

#My inisiative
- Pray more in order to soften my dad's heart to by me satrio neo...oooppss..I mean car..any kind doesn't matter
-Pray more so that Allah S.W.T will give rezeki
-My pointer is 3.0 above for these 3 semester *wink2 even it is decreasing each semester)

ps:those small fonts is purposely used

tag menge'tag"

2011-12-12T07:37:00.000-08:00

I've been tag by Ms Yuca

RULES

♥ you must post these rules in your entry

♥ Each person must post 11 thing about themselves in the jurnal

♥ answer the ques that tagger has sent for you in their post

♥ create 11 new ques for the people you have tagged to answer

♥ you must choose 11 people to tag and link then in your post

♥ go to their page and tell then that you have tagged HIM/HER

♥ no tagged back allowed

♥ you must choose 11 people to tag and link then in your post

♥ no stuff in tagging section about / / YOU ARE TAGGED IF YOU READING THIS / /

~~11 facts about me~~

~Looks fragile but very tough inside

~every place i went have their own song

~one day I wanna have a twin baby girl

~sgt manja disamping family n friends but when I am on my own I survived

~never give up in improving myself

~wish to have a husband like my daddy

~sbelum trjun dlm Dip. TESL sy berhajat nak jd seorg fashion designer

~xnak bersanding time kawen nanti

~gadget lover

~susah nak marah

~xnak cabut braces kat gigi ni

~~MY QUESTIONS~~

#Thing u hate the most about me

#First thing u notice about me

#blackberry ke iphone

#Klu marah korang buat ape?

#Craziest thing u've ever done

#Most embarrassing moment

#sakit yang paling trok yang pernah dialami

#what do you thing about vlogging?

#klu xde bf/gf pathetic ke?

#penah jenguk channel youtube sy x?

#List 5 things that I should I change about myself?

~~ANSWERS FOR YUCA~~

* macam mana kita boleh kenal?

Cik Yuca ingat x tyra tuisyen ngan cgu al-khornie time standard 3 kot klu x silap. Ala yg g skali je n x g dah afterwards...ha6 ( I think u r so gile gorgeous, u are till now fyi)

* favourite place yang korang nak sangat-sangat pergi

I really2 want to go to Paris before, tp kan tbe2 rase cam nak g Abu Dhabi plak..hihi

* siapa yang korang nak jumpa?

Aiman Azlan and Anwar Hadi * my favourite vlogger

* harapan untuk masa akan datang?

nak ader twin baby girl *is it too soon to say so~

* kfc or mcd?why?

emmm....kfc kot

* hadiah yang paling best pernah korang dapat?

Marie kepala besar yg Along ku bagi

* soalan yang paling susah korang dapat apa?

Tyra nape xde pakwe ?~

ps: Dont bother to have any ...seriously

* kenapa kebanyakan daripada kita lagi mudah kongsi masalah dengan kawan berbanding dengan mak ayah?

NOT TRUE!!! In my case la..tp klu org lain sbb mungkin feedback yg akaan dpt dr parents tu berbentuk nasihat, jdfor them it can be consider as BEBELAN..

* whats your honest opinion about me?kihh kihhh

Yuca comel sgt...

*apakah bad habit anda?haaa jujur cepat!

Klu nangis susah nak stop n tsenang sgt nak nangis

* 11 perkara yang anda suka @ tidak suka tentang saya

LIKES:

-Your immatureness

-Your chocolate cake

-Your piece of art (lukisan)

-Your voluptuous lips

-Hidung mancung hang

-Sgt bersungguh2 in doing things that u like

-Rajin leave comment kat DP pic tyra

-ur DSLR

-Habit Yuca yg ske sengetkan kepala klu tgkap gmbar :p

-Untungla kwn2 ngan org cantik je kan (not pointing to myself)

-Even we got issue in past, u still consider me as ur friend n make an effort to keep in touch that is the most favourite thing I like about u

HATES

- rase diri x cantik pdahal cun gle

-xpnah ajak tyra kuar

-x poke tyra

-byk private gmbr kt fb

-xske pki heels which is opposite of me

-hang xske pink, chek ske tau

-cek ske make up hang dok

-klu la kite xde issue dulu :(

-jgn mengeluh sgt

-ske biar bibir kering

-You once break my heart

~~PEOPLE I TAGGED~~

Asmida malik

Farida Griffin

Ain Sazri

AslamTaslim

Nur Alia Zainal

Nurul Syuhadah

Amalina Nabilah

Shazliana Anuar

Zaty Poyo

Zuhaira

Nadia Fahimi

Reflection cinta sms by Aiman Azlan

2011-12-05T08:35:00.000-08:00

Tatkala morning klas by Sir Mein cancel and today is 9 Muharram, me n my friends decided to fast for this 2 days so I try to avoid any accidental sins. Nak ngadap internet tp faham2 la what we have on FB kan. I'm not trying to show off yg me today ' bajet baik' or what, but everyday is a new fresh day where I hope to be better person than yesterday. (ok the explanation is a lil bit astray). The point is I want to read something ilmiah n benificial online. I kind a miss Aiman Azlan blog n vlog so I opened his blog and read his previous entry. FYI his product (videos n written blog) is one of my source of entertainment that not makes me forgot about my duty as HIS slave.

CINTA SMS...baca la best2

The title is CINTA SMS.... I prefer every Muslim and Muslimah to read it.. It is a story about the reality of being a teenager, sometimes we trying very hard to make something haram change to halal. It is a normal thingy if you have a crush on some1 u'll start texting him/her 24/7 which actually cost a lot of money. Surely there will be a list of excuses and reasons to sy it is ok. Maybe some will say "Hang xda marka tyra, boley la hang ceramah agama kat cni" I am reminding myself too brothers and sisters, I have no different than you guys. Through AimanAzlan's story which actually is another alternative of dakwah, he also mention about how Muslims these days tend to put aside all the don'ts just for sake of adat.

Amin~

Honestly for me myself, wedding songs annoys me. I thought kenduri is also time for meeting people who we lost contact. Sometimes people have to shout to have a conversation. Kesian kan..

Even though I am the only daughter in my family, I dont expect my wedding will be extra special. The topic have been raise up when I juz finished my SPM. My family and I make jokes about it, how much we want the wedding in our family be as simple as we could. * I hope I have a strength to agree whatever my dad have arrange for me on that day.

This is the love I'm looking for

BTW~ AimanAzlan changes me a lot. She makes me aware about the fact, there are still a true Muslim guy to be my other half who I dont met yet. Like my brother said, to make me deserve that kind of man, there are few changes that I have to make. Tabarruj...I have slowly leave it which is not easy but I'll never give up. Colour lenses...the time to say goodbye to u will come...This hijrah thing is something that we can't be instantly change, it takes time. Wish me luck, pray for me.

Nible & Nickel

2011-11-15T23:35:00.000-08:00

They are new members of our family. 2 adorable kelinci (rabbits)..My mum got them for free from her student (untung jd teacher kesayangan ni). Since Raims wishing to have his own pet since forever, so my mum gave it to Raims. He now a 'father' of 2 rabbits. At 1st we cannot detect the gender of Nickel n Nible (if u what i'm sayin') because they still babies. Before that, why Nickel & Nible. Why that name? Both have black and white flawless fur (sesuai ke gne flawless?) These are few details bout them.

They are like babies in the house. My mum will tease them like they will giggle back to her. Even my dad loves them. You know after facing a rough day, return home n play with them, can surely get rid of your stress.

NICKEL (black fur at the back of her ear)

GENDER: FEMALE

COLOUR: BLACK N WHITE

NIBBLE (white fur at the back of his ear)

GENDER: MALE

COLOUR: BLACK N WHITE

Those 2 photos above during when they were babies. I can hold them with only one hand each. Now, it's too heavy..

Now they already can be consider as grown ups rabbits. There were one day where I was not feeling well n sleeps everytime after I taking my meds. My 2 brothers wakes me up just to ask me to witness them ‘doing it’...Selekeh tau...

After I’ve been told about that, I ignore them for few days. WHY??!! Yela..I think it is too soon for them..They were babies n innocent..I can’t deal with the fact that they already...eerrrgghh...korg dah x innocent tau..I don’t care u guyz will having adorable babies soon. In recent day, nickel already started to take nibbles’ fur for the new born babies soon... Haha...sian nibble dah gugur fur die. Mama once said, 'Are we having rabbit as a pet or pig?' coz they eat like a pig...never stop eating..lol

Tgk dah gemok..mkn kangkung n kobis byk sgt

eye eye my eyes

2011-11-09T23:46:00.000-08:00

Never take things for granted.(pembuka kata paling x sesuai) I am so disappointed of myself because I dont take a good care of my sight. Allah bagi sepasang je tyra. Ok..my precious pair of eye have a bad history at the beginning actually. Time standard 2 I've already got problem with my sight (short sidedness) That time the power is only 50 both side. I really hate the fact that I have to wear spectacles like my brother. He have a good reason for that (love to read in the dark). My sight problem started...I think...because..I like to wear my brother's spectacles..(booyaa)..serves me right~

Prasan x spec tu cam brownish..coz my rabun is more tu silau

Ok ..so I deserve it. Sape suh gatal2 nak main spek org kan..Konon nak nampak skema skali skala, asyik nampak cam gangster je (time tu la). But then I decided to eat veggies a lot especially carrots. I think it works. No headache or problems not seeing things clearly. I believe it works coz the power is so low,so I think it's curable. I dont wear my glasses for is r 6 years coz I thought the problem have already gone untill I was in form 3. I have to wear it again. but I juz needed when I cant read what teacher wrote at the whiteboard, and started not wearing it again.

Now in present. I have to wear it whenever I have to look at a screen. Last time I check, my spectacles power increasing. 100 n 75.. No wonder I suffer never ending headache. My habit lately watching movies in the dark which force my eyes to stay focus on screen in darkness. The one that I wear is not a new one, it just to make sure my eyes received juz appropriate amount of lights entered. From now on I'll eat carrots juz like I drink plain water.

2011-11-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

Been to Medan is another one whole new experience for me. I always tell myself travelling, holiday or going to the place where unfamiliar place basicly, means learning through everything new around me. (skema ayat ku)

DEPARTING

This time we were in rush too. Our mistake is to have lunch at UIAM calmly without predicting any possibility of road jam on our way to LCCT. Thanked god we made it on time. Abg Apiz (my cousin) waited for us to park our car for us. Everyone already check in my grandparent n other relatives, they just waiting for us. This time I got seat beside my youngest brother n aircraft window so that I can enjoy watching clouds. (^_^)

ARRIVAL

First thing I did was set my watch 1 hour early than it should be since Medan is 1 early than Malaysia time. So that time was around 5 p.m but it looks like it almost dust. There were some technical problem so we got small bus to go to our hotel (Garuda Plaza). When I first step my foot down the bus, salesmen promoting their stuff on my face..but they were more polite than salesmen in Jakarta for sure. Good 1^st impression Medan (not!!!).

~~This is the Garuda~~

At the beginning , I was ask to stay with my cousin at my grandparents room, seems like the room is too small, I was transferred to my parents room (yippiieeee). ps: I got my own bed..duhhh~ My 3 brothers share room which is at the same floor. Their room got a good view than us, from our room the scenery would be a block of building. The hotel is cozy but I feel quite disappointed with the service. I bring along clothes and shawl that need to be iron. My mum call the room service department and asked them about iron, she had been told that there were only2 iron available in this hotel but only one is working ( what???!!!) I know right. Therefore along my trip my attire is very wrinkly (obviously).

We decided to go to nearby diner for a dinner. We just walk through the road to find place to eat and in our short journey searching for a place to dig in I saw a huge rat (the dead one)..Wow in the middle of city there were a rat corpse. I ask my brother to take a picture of it for our biological research :p We had Nasi Goreng Ayam with teh botol ( famous type of drink there, taste like jasmine tea) That nyte my adorable cousin spend the nyte at my room watching Hana Yori Dango.

SECOND DAY

We went to Pasar Ikan but there were no ikan there. There was where all small stores located selling variety of things but not food. I get my bangles there. This time I keep myself busy recording the environment and people around me rather than looking for things to buy (so not true). F.Y.I if u went to anywhere in Indonesia road seller will always chase n follow u. This time it was not as scary as in Bandung, they were a lot more proper in behavior term, still make us feel uneasy even we already but things from them. I admire they effort, they never give up selling stuff.

~~I get this for myself at Pasar Ikan~~

I started feeling ill that night, fever +PMS...I must get better before the next day coz we will go to Beras Tagi which I have no idea what is that place.

THIRD DAY

I feel bad coz I got to be in a cosy mpv with my Pak Long's family n my grandparents while my family members are on the bus. I'm sure it is not comfortable for them to squeeze in that small bus. I feel so bad..It was a long journey from the hotel to Beras Tagi.. I just know that there were where Lake Toba is. We stopped at a place which I dont know where n have a corn. Yummy corn~ The place is almost the same like we heading to Cameron Highlands but chiller.

I notice that along our journey people there sell a lot of 'Babi Bakar'...most of them natives n Christian believer.. When I read a signboard mention 'perkampungan Orang Batak', I juz remember when I was eleven my Muallim told me that Batak people eat human flesh *creepy

Ajin get me this ponco (my 1st ponco)

~~Raims gave me this (aren't he sweet)~~

~~I ask my mum to get me this..(hehe)~~

When we arrive, after that very very long time sitting in a car, it is worth it. We can see Lake Toba from the hill but we only see quarter of it. We can feel the cool air breeze which is so refreshing (if there were no one smoking around u). It is a peek of the moment for me because my 2 younger brother bought me a gift.. Naseb baik x nangis tau. We bought I TOBA LAKE. Each of us got one and decided to wear it tomorrow.

FINAL DAY

Since we check out at 1pm, so we decided to go to pasar behind the mall in the morning. The place looks like Ben Tahn in Vietnam. In one building there’s a lot of stuff for tourist. To go there we rent Avanza Kijang coz taxi wont fix for six people. We suppose to check out at 1 PM and the bus arrived at 2 PM. We have to wait at the hotel lobby for an hour. Packing barang. For the 1^st time eva during holiday my luggage got plenty of room, so all of fruits (bought at Beras Tagi), souvenirs and foods are all in my luggage. Luggage tu mmg besar pon.

Journey to the airport is really stuffy because small bus, a lot of things and people but its fine, things getting worse. Our flight delayed and the condition of Medan Airport....errmmm. KLIA is heaven, trust me. I do some recordings with my brother before check in. While waiting, me n my adorable little cousin finishing watch Hana Yori Dango until my lappy ran out of bateri. I got heavy flu so it was an uncomfortable experience when the air bus were about to land on LCCT. The air pressure was killing me, I feel like my face want to explode. Raims feel the same way coz his nose was runny too. BTW this time I sat beside hot stranger but it just 45 minutes journey. The only conversation we had, not really conversation... more to one way conversation. He took my other belt so I cant fasten my seatbelt, so I said “ Excuse me sir, I think u took the wrong belt.” He notice it without said nothing n fasten his seat belt. From his expression I can see he was nervous, not sure why. Perhaps he was nervous to be on the flight. We arrived at LCCT around 8 pm. My dad told us that our parking fee is RM200 something because Abg Apiz park our car at the Airport parking space. Not his fault at all, we were in rush back then.

That’s all about my holiday diary, quite long I reckon =)

HE MADE IT!!!

2011-11-02T22:36:00.000-07:00

I got goosebumps after I read my mum text message "Babah dah pass viva". That time I am having my lunch with my friends at campus cafe, we just finished our paper that day, got 2 more papers to sit...Thanked god I dont spit out my lunch to a person in front of me..I t is unspeakable emotion feeling happy + proud + almost burst into tears..I wanted to shout to the whole world that my dad at last finished his PhD.. I'm saying this with no intention to brag about it......but I know what he have gone through to achieve what he deserve now. I text Along to ask him whether he know about it, he said he already knew about it.Syukur sgt2.

Then I call my dad, but he didn't pick up, I guess he busy settling stuff. I finished my lunch (although I already full that time by the good news) and walk to my room as a happiest person on earth, I feel like running back to Kuantan there and then and hug my dad, despite of there were 2 more important papers to go (so back to reality).He's a Dr. now. He is the only Dr. in his sibling.. (stop it Athirah ) I just feeling so proud of him. In order for him to get to this point, there was a battlefield for more than 2 years back (or 3 years, i am so suck in number). Battlefield between himself , wife n kids.. It is not easy to be a father, son, student husband and father at the same time. Too many things he have to sacrifice. I'm glad all the battling is over for him.

Then he call me back,he said he was at the loo ...He is on his way back to home. I ask him to drive carefully. At that moment I think my soul is already home but my body is still there in campus to take another 2 papers.

Put myself back together

2011-10-17T11:26:00.000-07:00

I dunno whether it is a coincident or what, I think it is some kind a reward from Allah if I am sabar to go through hardship la kot.. I am so thankful everytime after I went through situation related to get over a boy, there will be an oppurtunity for me to go abroad for vacation tau (Alhamdulillah)...Last time after the situation with ikan belacak when I was 17, I got a chance to join exchange programme.

This time after struggling with myself to get over siput babi I got to clear up my mind by going to Medan. Thanks to Pak Long once again coz never stop from asking us to join in any trip. *wink2

Even Medan x abroad sgt, still need a passport to go there ryte? Vacation with my family what a blast~ I was thinking to share a video at youtube account after I've been there.. Ye la dah berkurun x post video pape..

Hope that I'll be having a great time till I 100% over my problems la kan..My mum praise me for how strong I've already been everytime I facing problems relate to boys. Trust me it is not easy to be on my own. For GIRLS OUT THERE who facing difficulties or some kind a conflict relate to boys u need good music n positive person around you. Don't think u are some kind a pathetic because being unlucky in relationship term (memang rase cam tu pon) If u can avoid, dont be around people who are in love..huhu kind reminder..coz u all will feel like you wanna smashing your head to the wall thinking y u are so unlucky. Trust me..lol.. Sorry juz being exaggerating. HEE~

I.N.S.E.C.U.R.E

2011-10-05T19:25:00.000-07:00

Gile kentang lame x post pape...bukan xnak tulis but too much personal problems...nak share kat blog rase cam public sgt...so better keep it to myself....Seriously lately I do a lot of inner monologue with myself...a lot of thing to say but dont write it..hurmmmm

INSECURE... Not confident or assured; uncertain or anxious ye definition-nyer..Safe here have many interpretation...I like to share a few insecurity that relate to relationship which come across my mind...It is a never ending feelings for women~ (btol ke word 'insecurity' tu exist? ske aty aku je) ^_^ mmg ade baru google search :p

1. INSECURITY towards yourself..(bukan security tau)
- it means feeling uncomfortable with yourself in term of your appearance, ability etc.. boleh jd over selfconscious....long term ley jd paranoid... hesitate in doing everything coz afraid people might hate us,criticize etc.Kite hidup kat dunia ni mmg utk org laen kan..think twice..tp jgn ignorance sampai we did the wrong thing n kwn tegor xnak terima..that's another problem (point to myself)..talk from experience...at the 1st place klu org tegur kite,kite msti rase cam marah but when we really think about it,thank u to that person now I know what i'm doing wrong...time to change the way we think (point to myself again)

2. INSECURITY towards your love ones (friends/lover/family)
- for lover u always think ur spouse might be cheating on u..indeed kene berwaspada tp if every single day what ur spouse get from you is tuduhan...fed up kowt.. for friend...u always think ur close friend might be leaving u or become close to someone else other than u ( sounds like me in the past)...in friendship u give a lot u will gain a lot..unless ur friend is such an unthoughtful person..actually that principle is applied to all relationship..in family...u feel like ur other siblings gain more attention that u from ur parents...

Mcm ade dua je la kan..my bad~
As a grown up teenagers n adult soon...I can say that Insecure is a never ending feelings.. coz when we are single we feel insecure about outer layer of ourself ,if we are more conscious we also think about 'what should I do to make myself have a better personality or different that other girls' so that I would be more appealing to people..for instance...Its normal to have that thought but dont over do it..

THat insecure continue when we met our spouse..still feeling insecure..thinking that our bf might find other girl is better than us..thare's no certainty for him to always tied up with us and see 'I am the only 1 for u!!' (hate that feeling)..but that's the reality..

Gettting married? Lelaki boleh kawin 4..still insecure...how to keep a long lasting relationship? It is too early for me to analyze it.It is not like I am too stress out about this..It juz something that I discuss/chat with my mum...and suddenly think about..mmg xde keje in the middle og study week fikir psal something not important..I'm juz sharing my thought here..taa~

Just can’t get enough

2011-09-22T06:31:00.000-07:00

Arrrgghhh...It is hurt when things doesn’t turn out just like we want it to be. We juz can’t get enough ryte? Meeting new people...Exchange number...Be friends in the facebook....Getting know each other better..bla..bla...bla..Start with friendship..getting closer...feel incomplete if not contacting each other..Those things happen to all of us just in different way...even we try very hard to avoid it.

When the relationship become more serious..that one of ‘ the seven wonders in the world’ feelings occur. LOVE.....That time we’ll feel like that time is a PEAK moment of our life.. (^_^)....My world without him is like a tree without fruits...like hives without honey...and all sweets idioms that came across your mind...sometimes you created your own...or even better, u become a new Shakespeare~

In this phase, even u are the most intelligent person on earth, u can turn out to be a dumbie dumb.. Trust me (talk from experience) lol~ There comes the conflict....fighting..hurting each other...ignoring each other...and juz realise u have made a huge mistake. TADAA~

wlupon xde kaitan,tp kaitannye i am caffein addicted :)

Healing part..Everyone have different way in handling or facing this phase...crying...too much laughing...ignore the feeling, although u are sobering inside (that’s me!!)....do stupid things...It depends how far you put yourself in that relationship...

The fact is...this cycle never stop...until we found the one who actually meant for us..the one u already decided for us at ‘LUHULMAHFUZ’...nobody knows who and when we will meet our soulmate...For me whoever I met,knew or loved ( all in past tense), I never regret it. There always be a reason why. Basicly, its normal..get the love..loosing love...my Principe Doesn't matter I got the person that I love or not, but it is important for me for him to be happy~ X serik2 kan bercinta

Fell in love with them~

2011-09-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

This would be a catalyst for me to save my own money~ tp kan x tau nak yg mane la..kene solat istikharah dulu nih...(overrated le)

Panasonic Lumix DMC-GF3 specifications



Body material	Aluminium / Plastic
Sensor	• 4/3 type MOS ('Live MOS sensor') • 13.06 million total pixels • 12.10 million effective pixels • RGB (Primary) color filter array
Aspect ratios	• 4:3 • 3:2 • 16:9 • 1:1
Image sizes	4:3 • 4000 x 3000 • 2816 x 2112 • 2048 x 1536 • 1600 x 1200 (when 3D lens is attached) 3:2 • 4000 x 2672 • 2816 x 1880 • 2048 x 1360 • 1600 x 1064 (when 3D lens is attached) 16:9 • 4000 x 2248 • 2816 x 1584 • 1920 x 1080 • 1600 x 904 (when 3D lens is attached) 1:1 • 2992 x 2992 • 2112 x 2112 • 1504 x 1504 • 1440 x 1440 (when 3D lens is attached)
File formats	• RAW • RAW + JPEG Standard • RAW + JPEG Fine • JPEG (EXIF 2.2) - Standard • JPEG (EXIF 2.2) - Fine • MPO + Fine (with 3D lens) • MPO + Standard (with 3D lens)
Movie mode*	AVCHD • NTSC: Full HD: 1920 x 1080, 60i (sensor output is 30p), 17Mbps or 13Mbps HD: 1280 x 720, 60p (sensor output is 30p) 17Mbps or 13Mbps • PAL: Full HD: 1920 x 1080, 50i (sensor output is 25p) 17Mbps or13Mbps HD: 1280 x 720, 50p (sensor output is 25p) 17Mbps or 13Mbps Motion JPEG • HD: 1280 x 720, 30fps • 4:3: QVGA : 320 x 240, 30fps / VGA : 640 x 480, 30fps
Lenses	• Micro Four Thirds mount lenses • Four Thirds mount lenses via adapter (DMW-MA1PP)
Focus modes	• Contrast AF system • Manual focus • Face Detection • AF Tracking • 23-Area-Focusing • 1 Area Focusing • Pinpoint Focusing* • Single or Continuous AF • Touch AF (1- area-focusing in Face detection / AF Tracking / Multi-area-focusing / 1-area-focusing / pinpoint focusing*)
AF assist lamp	Yes, dedicated lamp
Image stabilization	None (lens only)
Digital zoom	• Up to 4x
Exposure modes	• Program AE • Aperture priority AE • Shutter priority AE • Manual • iAuto • iAuto Plus* • Creative Control* • Scene • Custom (3 memories)*
Scene modes	• Portrait • Soft Skin • Scenery • Architecture • Sports • Peripheral Defocus • Flower • Food • Objects • Night Portrait • Night Scenery • Illuminations • Baby 1 / Baby 2 • Pet • Party • Sunset
Creative Control Modes*	• Expressive • Retro • High Key* • Sepia* • High Dynamic* • Miniature Effect*
Sensitivity*	• Auto ISO • Intelligent ISO • ISO 160* • ISO 200 • ISO 400 • ISO 800 • ISO 1600 • ISO 3200 • ISO 6400
Metering	144-zone multi-pattern sensing system
Metering range	0 to 18 EV
Metering modes	• Multiple-Weighted • Center-Weighted • Spot
AE Lock	• Set the Fn button in custom menu to AE lock*
AE Bracketing*	• 3 or 5 frames • 1/3 or 2/3 steps to ±2.0 EV
Exposure steps	1/3 or 1.0 EV
Exposure compensation	• -3.0 to +3.0 EV • 1/3 EV steps
Shutter speed	• 60 - 1/4000 sec • Bulb (up to 4 mins) • Flash X-sync 1/160 sec
White balance	• Auto • Daylight • Cloudy • Shade • Halogen • Flash • Custom 1 • Custom 2 • Kelvin temp (2500 - 10000 K, 100K steps)
WB fine tuning	Yes (blue/amber bias, magenta/green bias)
WB Bracketing	• 3 shots •+/-1 to +/-3 in either blue/amber or magenta/green axis
Color space	• sRGB • Adobe RGB
Photo Styles*	• Standard • Vivid • Natural • Monochrome • Scenery • Portrait • Custom
Image parameters*	• Saturation • Contrast • Sharpness • Noise reduction
Drive modes *	• Single • Continuous H (3.2 fps, no Live View) • Continuous M (2.6 fps, with Live View) • Continuous L (2 fps, with Live View)
Continuous buffer	• 7 RAW images • Unlimited JPEG images with a fast card
Self-timer	• 2 sec • 10 sec • 10 sec, 3 images
Flash	• Manual pop-up • TTL auto / manual • Guide no. 6.3 (ISO 160, m)* • Sync modes: Auto, On, Off, Red-eye reduction, Slow syncro with red-eye reduction, Slow syncro • First curtain sync
Flash X-sync speed	1/160 sec
External flash*	• None
Viewfinder*	• None
Orientation sensor	Yes, via OIS lenses only
LCD monitor	• 3.0in Low temperature Polycrystalline TFT LCD • 3:2 aspect ratio • Wide viewing angle • 460,000 dots • 60 fps • Approx 100% frame coverage • Brightness (7 levels), Color (7 levels)
Playback functions	Normal playback, 30-thumbnail display, 12-thumbnail display, Calendar display, Zoomed playback (16x Max.), Slideshow (duration & effect is selectable), Playback Mode (Normal/Picture/AVCHD/Motion JPEG/3D Play/Category/Favorite), Title Edit, Text Stamp, Video Divide, Resize, Cropping, Aspect Conversion, Rotate, Rotate Display, Favorite, Protect, Face Recognition Edit
Microphone*	• Mono* (with Wind Cut: Off/Low/Standard/High) • Microphone level adjustable: Lv1/Lv2/Lv3/Lv4
Connectivity	• USB 2.0 (High Speed) • Video Out (NTSC / PAL) • HDMI (mini HDMI type C)
Print compliance	• PictBridge • DPOF
Storage	SD / SDHC / SDXC
Power*	• Li-ion Battery Pack (7.2V, 940mAh) • Supplied charger / AC adapter
Dimensions	107.7 x 67.1 x 32.5 mm / 4.24 x 2.64 x 1.28 in
Weight (camera body)	Approx. 225 g (7.94 oz)
Weight (inc card and battery)	Approx. 264 g (9.31 oz)
Weight (inc H-H014 lens, card and battery)	Approx. 319g (11.25 oz)
Weight (inc H-FS014042 lens, card and battery)	Approx. 475 g (16.75oz)

Sony NEX-C3 specifications


Price (with 18-55mm zoom lens)	• US: $649 • UK: £499 • EU: €649
Body material	• Metal top plate, Polycarbonate
Sensor *	• 23.4 x 15.6 mm Exmor APS HD CMOS Sensor • 16.2 million effective pixels • 16.5 million effective pixels
Image sizes *	3:2 • 16 MP - 4912 x 3264 • 8.4 MP - 3568 x 2368 • 4.0 MP - 2448 x 1624 16:9 • 12 MP - 4912 x 2760 • 7.1 MP - 3568 x 2000 • 3.4 MP - 2448 x 1376
Image sizes (Panorama)	Sweep Panorama • 8192 x 1856 • 2160 x 3872 • 12416 x 1856 • 2160 x 5536 3D Sweep Panorama • 4912 x 1080 • 7152 x 1080 • 1920 X 1080
File qualities / formats	• RAW • RAW + JPEG Fine • JPEG Fine • JPEG Standard
Movie	• MPEG-4 • 1280 x 720p 29.97fps (9 or 6 Mbps) • 640 x 480 29.97fps
Dust reduction	• Coating on low pass filter • Sensor-shift
Lenses	• Sony E-mount • Sony Alpha lenses, Minolta and Konica Minolta AF lenses via adaptor (MF only, exclude power zoom lenses/tele-converters)
Image Stabilization	• 'Optical SteadyShot' system on selected lenses
Auto Focus	• Contrast AF • 25 multi-point • Centre-weighted • Flexible Spot
Shooting modes	• Intelligent Auto • Program • Aperture priority • Shutter priority • Manual • Sweep Panorama • Anti-Motion Blur • Scene modes (below)
Scene modes	• Portrait • Landscape • Macro • Sports Action • Sunset • Night view/portrait • Hand-Held Night Shot
Sensitivity	• Auto (Range varies depending on shooting mode) • ISO 200 • ISO 400 • ISO 800 • ISO 1600 • ISO 3200 • ISO 6400 • ISO 12800
Metering modes	• Multi-segment (49 segment Honeycomb pattern) • Center-weighted • Spot
Exposure compen.	• -2.0 to +2.0 EV • 0.3 EV steps
Shutter Speed	• Electronically controlled, vertical traverse, focal-plane type • 30 to 1/4000 sec • Bulb
Aperture values	Depends on lens, 0.3 EV steps
White balance	• Auto • Daylight • Shade • Cloudy • Tungsten • Fluorescent • Flash • Color temperature/filter (2500 - 9900 K) • Manual (Custom) • Manual (Custom set)
Dynamic range optimizer	• Off • DRAuto • HDR Auto
Color space	• sRGB • Adobe RGB
Color modes	• Standard • Vivid • Portrait • Landscape • Sunset • B&W
Picture Effect*	• Posterization (color/B/W) • Pop Color • Retro Photo • Partial color (R/G/B/Y) • High Key • High Contrast Monochrome • Toy Camera
LCD monitor	• 3.0 XtraFine TruBlack LCD • 921,600 pixels • Angle adjustable 80 degrees up/45 degrees down
Flash	• External flash (supplied), attachable to Smart Accessory Terminal • GN : 7 meters • Flash Sync: 1/160sec
Flash modes	• Auto • On • Off • Fill-flash • Slow Sync • Rear Sync. • Red-eye reduction on/off selectable
Drive modes	• Single-frame • Continuous • Speed Priority • 10 sec 3 or 5 images • Bracket Cont 0.3 EV • Self Timer
Continuous shooting	• Approx: 2.5 fps • Speed-priority mode: max 5.5 fps • Varies according to shooting conditions and memory card used
Self-timer	• 10 or 2 seconds
Connectivity	• HDMI out (with PhotoTV HD and BRAVIA Sync) • USB 2.0 Hi-Speed
Storage	• Memory Stick Pro Duo • SD/SDHC/SDXC
Power*	• NP-FH50 Lithium-Ion rechargeable battery (supplied) • Battery charger included • Optional AC adapter
Battery Life (CIPA)*	400 shots approx.
Dimensions *	110 x 60 x 33mm
Weight (with batt and card)*	Approx. 225g (7.9 oz)
Supplied accessories	Shoulder strap; Battery; Charger; USB cable (miniB); CD‑ROM; Flash

past and present

2011-08-16T15:44:00.000-07:00

Aiyyooo...x payah nak self proud sgt la kan tyra ..nak cite pasal diri sendiri je...(eee ni blog sy kan jd ske aty sy la kan..lala~) Since I wake up early for my sahur today (awal 1 jam je pon, baik g ngaji sane)...Suddenly i feel like typing/writing/blogging? Either one la kan..

I feel like sharing something about myself which relates to my behavior..(toink toink) When I was small, I was very bossy...Everyone have to listen to me~ That kind of attitude makes me very similar with Marie's attitude (because i'm a lady that'ts y) Dari kecik duk rewind cite The Aristocats, tu yg jadi cam tu.. COincidently there were 3 kittens characters in that cartoon 2 male kitten n a female kitten, that time there were only 3 of us (Along,me n Jiji)...That's how I was at home that time..

~~sgt adorable ye time tu :p~~

In kindergarten , THAT attitude remain the same..but I was more to gangster...boys at the kindergarten also cant beat me in any cases...I was a little bit tomboy (TUNGGAL PMPUAN~) that time n adik abang sgt.. That time my Along is really patient laa I tell u..kat skola asyik nak mengekor along je..kwan ngan kawan2 along...If i recall everything, me myself can't stand with that kind of girl....When I was gone for exchange programme I have host sister name Zamia. I told about how she behave to my parents. Guess what they said~ (Hurmm that kind of attitude...sounds familiar) Toink toink kantoi~

Me today~ Totally opposite with me in the past..U can judge me after u meet me or know me.. Based on what my friends said about me.. I am...soft(har har)....can't say 'NO'...manje(tua bangke x sedar)~ GEGURL SGT!!!...somehow being me (manje kind of attitude) people misjudge me as GEDIX...seriously it hurts to heard that..being outspoken makes people said I am show off....That's why I started to be a little bit low profile which that's how it should be la kan...

BUT...there always a but...I express myself differently..which is through vlogs n blogs...another thing is..my appearance..about my appearance la kan...I am so dang enthusiast in fashion..(istighfar..sederhana dlm semua hal tyra)...that's why I dont mind to try something new..as long as still according to syarak ( i try my best to follow)...to those yg duk kritik je keje how i dressed....MYOB (mind your own bussiness)... people who love to criticic ni kan...xtau la nak ckp camne...udoh2 le ngate orgnyer...samada die sedar atau x...die telah mengecilkan hati org lain...n lg satu...die telah me'remark' dirinyer as shallow thinker...so muhasabah diri yer...(jgn sampai i wat vlog psal ni lol)

Blog post kali ni gle kentang cam jaja sikap sndiri kt org kan..basicly..people do change..Boleh je berubah dr yg kurg baik ke lebih baik..kan2..

أهلا وسهلا ya Ramadhan ~

2011-08-02T09:45:00.000-07:00

With a blink of eye...Ramadhan is already started...It is sad to know that I have to fast without being around my family but its ok.. I have GC with me (gadis ciptaan).. BTW before I started to fast, I was demanding for a few food that I can get if I were home (melampau kan sy hee~)
Since my eldest brother just started working at SECRET RECIPE..I ask him to get me spicy chicken cornish ( karipap besar je pon) a day before I decided to come home...My dad pick me up at the bus station, and he told me mum doesnt prepare dinner coz she have tuition class tonight so what I want to have for dinner. Since I only crave for IT...I ask my dad to drop by at SecretRecipe IM to see my Along..Ske2 ambush ke kaunter n tanyer kakak kat c2 Ahmad Radhi mane kak. Tgk2 my Along is dedicatedly wiping the table..Bergaye siot..COOL sgt...Hug him n take my chicken cornish..(customer n waiter kt c2 pndang slek je, pehal wat PDA kt cni..:p)hee

~~last2 share berempat baru abes~~

He just change his job..Before this he worked at Kamdar, since he get better offer he accepted the offer from Secret Recipe. He's in uniform now y'll. Ye la break lame2 duk umah je boring kowt.. This is the time for him to gain knowledge and experience..You Go ALONG~

Tak cukup dengan tu..Since these days musim durian n my dad know I am the only children who really eat durian..hehe..so he baught the best quality durian so that we can eat it before fasting month.

I just ate 3 per day(per meal =p)

.My mum did this beyond of expectation cook..She knows I love seafood especially prawn ( i wish i have the picture, n crab so dang much. So she bought freakishly massive prawn I ever see and crabs( I dont know how many kilos are they) for my 3 days n 2 night stays at home (heaven~)..My mum said its all mine and I have to finish them within my stay coz my mom dont want to see the lefts over when I already back in campus..sob3 Thank you soo much mama..you know here...nothing suits my taste buds...but I eat to keep on surviving here..
Therefore...back in campus kne extreme diet n work ot la kan..of course...xkan nak biar bdan cam pelampung kan(even skrg already mcm anak bdak)...nanti xmuat plak baju raye I...yg xwujud lg tu (soon2)
This blog title is welcome ramadhan n...what did I wrote???hampeh la awk ni tyra...

Win Heart N Mind

2011-07-27T04:42:00.000-07:00

This program is under co curricular of uni which all Diploma sem3 have to take part. In it there's a programme under TESLIAN where we have to conduct n activities in primary school with help of other facies (friends from other course) Guess what, I am the only TESLIAN handling the programme in a school. Even me myself cant believe it.. It is actually out of my imagination kowt. BTW praise to god I managed to handle it with their help (other faci). Korg mmg terbaik la. Oppssy.. skip cite pule...

All of UniSZA's student have to stay with foster family. My foster family is the best. I feel so lucky to have them. Tyra sowg je spatotnye Ida skali. Since Ida dah tukar senitari,then i'm alone. Pa, mak, abg Mus, Alang n Yana. Yana is my niece, she call me mak ngah and she is the one that will give ride and send me to Fasha, Watiey n Ila's house (they stay together in 1 house). At the beginning cuak gak, coz the bath room didn't have a door. (with 3 men in the house,u can imagine how I felt). Thanked god, there were no accident happened. (sigh). What make me feel luckier, there always some1 that will pick me up from the bus to take me home *wink2...

Even I dont have little brother n sister, tumpang adik2 org laen. Those kids sgt peramah even agak hyper..they juz being kids. One of them cried badly when we have to leave..Isn't it sweet... Those experience I cant put it in words.

Seronoknyer... Mak asyik risau suh makan je... My first meal there is nasi with sambal petai. I orang kampung telan je lauk2 cam tu.. Mak risau coz I dont eat much rice. Even abes programme kul 9 p.m pon mak suh mkn nasi. That's why I said to her, Mak nseb baik tyra tiggal kejap je, klu tggal lame, x muat pintu ni ha tyra nak kuar.ha6..Btw they call me MIRA instead of TIRA...hik hik..Final day baru diorang pggil Tira..huhu..These few days they call me almost everyday even juz to say 'dah makan ke blom?'. HIHI

Fear ~

2011-07-12T01:34:00.000-07:00

I am in fear...

Fear of of being in love

loving him without he love me back

Fear of jealousy

feeling jealous seeing him with someone else

Fear of loneliness

once he is mine I want him to be always by my side

Fear of waiting

waiting for him to say he love me out loud

Fear of uncertainty

will he feels hurt seeing me with some1 else?

Fear of myself

being carried away with this feeling...

Me recently

2011-07-07T22:35:00.000-07:00

Last night I didn't had enough sleep. That's why I just woke up and straight away wrote this. At 2 a.m my body suddenly awake by a 'feeling' that I haven't feel it for quite sometimes. Feeling of being in love with someone. My friends always tell me that love will come naturally in your live without your expect it. I dont know what am I thinking right now. Maybe this feeling come because I am too stress out know, so GOD lend this feeling to ease this tense down a little bit. If it so thanked GOD..I am so appreciate if it juz a short n temporary feelings coz if it not I'm not sure whether I can handle it or not.

can I handle this? ^0^

Why I am feeling tense? 2nd Secretary works + assignments + presentation + missing my family (every1 does intense. DUHH~). Normally shopping will ease these tense but I think this time it is not enough. In addition, issue with junior which kind a freak me out. *Congrats kid I am freaked out. I wish I dont have any responsibility but somehow another part of me feeling grateful to the opportunity that I got. So that I know how to handle this n that in such organisation. Cuddling n kissing are the important thing in my life. Its been 4 weeks I dont get any of it. Dont misunderstood here. I'm some kind of pervert ok. I mean cuddles n kisses from my family. Not get any of it make me feel neglected *baru 4 mggu keccoohh
Saw one by one of my friends went home and their family came to visit make me feel very lonely. I want it too (we cant everything we want sis)

What else I can say other than..ATHIRAH take it like a grown ups.. You are not a baby anymore..

stinky heart can't be hide 4 ever

2011-06-27T03:26:00.000-07:00

How to face with a envy kind of people.... Envy tu ape teacher?? Envy tu iri hati yunk. Anywhere we go, there always people that dont like us...How to handle this? First thing first, bersyukur coz kite ade advantage yg sampai ade orang envy kat kite. *Alhamdulillah... BUT jgn riak pulak...That's why it is very important to us to be down to earth kind of person.

Envy is not always negative in haunting to become a better person. (haunting?) For example, envy with our friend because he/she perform better in studies than us. The envy feelings will be a trigger for us to struggle more and perform better in studies too just like our friend. Positive tuuu..

But in term of envy with our friend because of the advantage that they have is a BIG DON'TS. Even you dont show it as time goes by..the truth will be revealed...Having this kind of friend we should be very careful and be patient with them. Sometimes they act as innocent as baby and advice us if we have made 'mistakes'. Behind all that, there were envy in it. Dont trust me?? been there done that... Dont call this people a friend, they dont deserve it AT ALL..

Normally this kind of person are very2 good in manipulating a situation which makes us feel we are the biggest jerk in the world..(which actually they are the 1 that jerks) from time to time people will notice who's in the right place.. key word for this whole situation is be patient..SABAR....and pray to god to give us strength in dealing this kind of people..

~~a look have million meaning~~

Setiap org ade kelemahan and kelebihan masing2..buat ape nak envy2 ni..At the end, it will destroy the relationship je..Betoll.. Long term of envy will result a hater...Someone who never agree with anything that people do. (normally to a person they envy with) Teacher ckp belit2 x paham..xpe2
This post is more to personal feeling that have been convert to words. People are complicated. Sometimes people misjudge us about who we are..Nak wat camne...

still long way to go...

2011-06-25T03:32:00.000-07:00

This sem I dah senior la u..( best ke??) Perhaps not really... For this initial..(huh??!!) I mean beginning..duhh~ of this semester..I am so much love to be in my silent..not that silent la..but less talk more reading and plug in my ears (since lecture x start lg kan)...

It's feeling AWESOME to live in your own world while others chit chat n making stupid jokes in class.(yela bile lagi nak wat bising n bersuka ria kan) but I don't know what happen to me..out of sudden I started to like reading..(did I just type it?? 'READ"?) YEAH ME READING~ I know unbelievable kot...I hate reading...but since I'm not interested in talking too much nonsense anymore, only reading and plug in my ear will keep me silence..(I LOVE THE NEW ME)... Yup coz if I'm too energetic and talking too much kene label plak ( tyra suke attract attention, bajet howt dowh) * no 1 cares laa weyh

I love my new roomate. Alhamdulillah..Praise to Allah for give her as my roomies.. She such a sweet person..we get along well (or is it too soon to say so?) It's fine its a doa from me..Hoping we'll be fine living together for 2 semester.. we're in same course but she is in the other group..having her as my roomies makes me feel more belong to 'GADIS CIPTAAN' with my 2 majesty who just be my sisters..huhu..

I admit that now me myself are becoming quite dull and boring person. I realise it but I think that is the best fact to know now. If we are less appealing, people will not notice us so much. Meaning u wont be a hot topic to be talk about behind your back * i hope . weyh ignore je la..Till when we should lives based on people judgement. Lala~

Hyperhidrosis~

2011-06-19T05:33:00.000-07:00

~~nak hanky baru~~~

I severe HYPERHIDROSIS... ape benda tu teacher?? sweaty palms, is the most common form of hyperhidrosis, which causing excessive sweating of the hands. Mcm tgn berpeluh dlm air conditioned room enviroment most of the time.iN MY case, palms and foot are part where always sweating. Since I was 15 (kalau x silap la) maybe bcoz dah start serious in studies kot time tu (serious ke??)

~~this is how my hands look like if it start sweating~~

Tp jgn risau~ this disease may not end up with death (kowt)... It's quite disturbing, lagi2 klu time nak tulis essays,typing..but time to time I get use to it...Therefore since 4ever I always bring a long my hanky (face towel)..n dah berape banyak helai tercicir merata-rata.. That's my problem slalu x prasan kat mane letak hanky...Most of them Marie nyer hanky la kan..hehe

ade sape2 sudi hadiahkan x??

Jd sape2 yang rase nak bagi hadiah kat tyra ley la bg handkerchief pasni (wink2) =p

caffeine in the coffee..like3

2011-06-17T04:06:00.000-07:00

I am a coffee lover..yup..even my hand is already shaking like earthquake, I havent stop drinking it yet.. I like to flash back when was is all started.. black coffee..cappucino..latte..white coffee..just name it..I'll drink it..

It's all started when I was determined to stay up to study during high school.. I consume oat+nestume+nescafe 3 in 1 each morning since I was 14 if I'm not mistaken. I do have migraine but my breakfast routine does not make it worse so I never stop or change that routine.

I start to try black coffee when I went for an exchange programme..my host mum love to make coffee to keep her awake..ape lagi tumpang sekaki la kan.. I dont expect that it taste so good..but when I reaturn back to nation I am so lazy to make my own coffee so I turn back to 3 in 1.. I also had my chance to taste home made cappucino...nyum3

Despite all this...me as a coffee lover I never taste or have even 1 sip of coffee from starbucks... I waited for some1 to buy it for me..(wink3)

Basicly...I can;t start my day without a cup of coffee even I know how bad it is..

korean fever???

2011-06-17T03:35:00.000-07:00

Second semester break already over in a blink of my eyes (wink2). Am I used that break wisely.. INDEED!!

Khatam cite korea Boys Over Flower. Sambil masak ngan mama kat dapur lyn Goo Joon Pyo ('lame' la ko tyra)... (since when u layan korea tyra??) I'm juz being versatile. I am born to be someone that try to adapt with everything not criticizing(HATERS)...before this sape kate yang x suke sgt korea tu ek?? (diam2 sudey hee..) lagu blog pon korean gak pehal??(shhh~)

~~cam cite METEOR GARDEN pon ade cte ni~~

Ok what~ love the music..as a music lover I appreciate every song in any language which is nice to listen to.. prefer me any song for sure I'll listen to it..This KPop thingy mmg ramai kot yang suke..ade yang sampai kat FB pon penoh gambar actor n actress korea..I am not yet reach that point yet..I just like the music..(yela2 maybe some actor)

I do love to listen to CNBLUE songs. why??coz I dont like to listen to song that everyone know.. (bajet up to date) hihi xde la trust me their music is awesome (after being told by my brother baru nak dgr padahal).. tak best la dgr lagu2 yang dah jd ringtone semua org..kan2....xde la addicted sgt juz they got good music (dlm mp3 penoh lgu depa).

~~kpop band that dont dance in their mv~~

Not bad la kan...even I kind a like kpop lately but for sure not obsessed with them... not all the time 'Saranghae' and stuff. I try to make it ass moderate as possible...nothing can replace my only obsession (marie!!) Actually this is one of thing that I said I DONT LIKE.. remember about nver say hate principle..it happen to me zillion of time...dont hate too much and dont like too much...ingat tu ~

the challenge

2011-06-02T08:31:00.000-07:00

I take aimanazlan90 challenge to prepare a mother's day video...
He is one of the youtuber that I subscribed to. Honestly, the beginning is GEDIX GILERR kot... He asked to mention about 3 things but I guess I didn't follow the regulation. (no wonder this video is so B.O.R.I.N.G...I'm not sure whether I should show this to my mum coz if she know that I put this video in youtube..I think she will be upset...so I just say the same thing that I said in this video live in front of her..hihi
sORRY MAMA..

FYI...this video I prepared without any plan,1st record and I edited here and there then uploaded it...(mmg xde org nak tgk la kan)

Disebabkan I x mention few things that aimanazlan90 ask to include in the video, I add it in words je la eh..

~~ONE THING I ADORE ABOUT MY MOM~~
sHe is in her 40's but she looks younger than me even 1 of my friends said "tyra ur mum look like ur sister, younger sister". Plus, she act like she's 18.... that's why having 3 teenagers(Along dah adult kot) is easy for her to get along. She is very neat. This house always spic and span with her touch. I adore the way she fold the clothes, cleaning the house, get things in the house in order. She really hope I will turning out like her one day (i'm struggling mommy) even she never mention it to me.

~~ONE FOND MEMORY WITH MY MUM~~
We both love to sing(privately just two of us). There was a time when only 2 of us left in the house, I record her voice singing a song U LIGHT UP MY LIFE i'm not sure who sing it. That song leaves a huge impact on me because when I was little, I never know my mum have such a sweet voice. That song is the 1st song I heard she sang and I cried that time. Now I learn that song, we sang and record our voices. Whenever I miss her I'll listen to that song.....which will be followed by tears..

~~ONE VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE TO MY MUM~~
Although I already make a speech for my mum. I just want to write it again. Mama u are not just a mother to your kids who fed us with yummy food, prepare all off our wants and needs, loving us, take care of us.... u are a role model that I wish I will be a wonderful person just like u one day...u resemble a very good example as a teacher, student, daughter,sister,friend,wife and a mother...even all the time u never take it serious when I mention ur kindness....u are mama...You always said that u think u dont act like a mum..it doesnt matter because that makes u our one and only mama..The mother of 3 sons and a daughter...everytime my eyes blinking...everytime my heart is beating...every breath that I take....cant compare to prove how much I love u.. and I know u will reply "Love from a mother to their children would be more than that". love u mama..xoxoxo

Allergic ~

2011-05-28T01:26:00.000-07:00

Some people have allergy towards food such as seafood. What happen if they consume it?? Usually they got rashes or sneezing a lot...Normally people who have Resdung severe this..OR I remember my brother who had a critical resdung, which already ease down since he had undergo a minor surgery....he ate rebung one day..and in few minutes her lip blotted..his face was so funny..haha...I'm not sure it was cause by his resdung or not actually...but his fine on the next morning his lips back to normal...

For myself...I do have allergy...I cant wear jewelleries that made other than GOLD..
yeah I know right...kulit mahal..It is not something that I ask for..I think it was cause by ECZEMA that I had when I stay in UK for a year..I was 4 at that time...the outcome of this problem I will constant itchiness on my skin and I will keep on scratching my body like a...like a....x mo la wat perumpamaan....I already recovered by that ECZEMA but my skin now is more sensitive..

I can only wear real gold and silver only(GEDIX GILERR)....but it is unpredictable...sometimes it was fine to wear metal made accessories....I cant wear ordinary watch that have a stainless steel touch my skin at the back of the watch....When I was registered to uni , mymum gave me her casio watch which are made by fully stainless steel if i'm not mistaken...It was fine...My skin have no rashes even the watch was not made by gold or silver...but lately my skin have rashes cause by the watch...
It's like an on off rashes...
It was definitely an allergy that comes whenever it like..ergghh..what should I wear then??

SHOEZ...

2011-05-26T17:57:00.000-07:00

This is another thing that I cant resist..even my mum said I'll face problem in future by having tons of this precious piece of art.

~~SHOES~~ is not just one of thing that we put at our feet k...for me I love to indulge myself with shoes..nothing can make me stop liking it and search for new up dated design..even I can afford to get it..but this thing motivate me to save my own money and earned it...*wink2

isn't she pretty??

sneakers + wedges......simply an art

this is the 1 that I am aiming right now

arrrrrr

Guys..just could not understand how much shoes effect us as girl or lady...it's like..it ok to wear ugliest outfit eva but with a perfect shoes the weakness will not be noticed...
So if anyone have any intention to buy me a gift..hihi (perasan ade org nak bg)
BTW my size is 7...

secretary .....security....x ske3

2011-05-23T22:49:00.000-07:00

During my second semester in uni I was unfortunately dominated by one of my senior to hold a title as secretary. I have no experience in jog down details for meetings, proposal and preparing letter sort of stuff. At that moment I was not sure about me being someone that play quite an important role in TESL Society. Unexpectedly I got the most amount of vote. TADAA~ I am a 2nd secretary. =(

Actually, secretary is the least favorite title among all and I have no idea about it until I got my first task. Seems like semester 4 will be facing their practicum in next semester. The 1st secretary will be extra busy with her practicum BTW 1st secretary is Kak Ain semester 4. So most of the paper work must be prepared by me and will be checked by her. Starting this coming semester la. She already done a lot of work last semester. Now is my turn. (I am dead meat).

What I feel towards this secretary thingy? I'm doing my work as best as I can in sake of responsibility ONLY. I'm not the kind of person that love to be an important person or GILA KUASA, so i'm not really fond of this thing BUT I'm not nagging because there were a lot of thing to do and time to be sacrifice. Yup. Like now is semester break I should feel free to sit back and relax before the break ends. Instead of chill out I have to prepare proposals for next semester and a lot of letters, plus meeting minutes. I 'LOVE' this job.

Cant wait to finish this coming semester and free from any kind of title. I wish I am invisible!!! (not make sense)

My first Video Log

2011-05-22T22:17:00.000-07:00

~~Before u play this video, pause the plain white t's song tu eh..hee~~~

This is my first video log which obviously have a lot more to improve. For anyone that give a feedback and advice thank u so much. I realize that all the comment and critic is needed so that my next video will be better.My brother and one of my classmates said that I have to enhance my facial expression. Word that came out from my mouth not really synchronize with my facial expression. As a result, viewer will not really get what I've tried to say. In addition, thank you to all my friends that personally requested more video from me which shows you are supporting me in doing this. (sgt terharu ye disitu)

From now on I will start to do a lot of face exercise so that muka x ketat sgt and reduce pauses, even pauses tu boleh edit tp well..agak malas ye di situ..ha!!! Another thing my brother advice me to speak English without any slang coz nanti org menyampah plak kan cam mat salleh wannabe plak.. So excuse me to speak English in a Gedix way, it wont happened again.

If u guys ada idea for my next video, please do inform it to me k..text ke fb ke blog comment ke..kat mane2 la...

Last but not least, these video x ditujukan specifically kepada sape2 ye but if there anyone yg terasa (sapa yg mkn cili die yg terasa pedasnyer kan) kite try improve same2 eh..

second semester = end

2011-05-21T23:10:00.000-07:00

ENGLISH CAMP~

2011-05-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

English Camp is sad to know it's already come to an end ~
actually it's a mix feelings towards it. SAD =( & HAPPY =)

I'm glad to be in BLITZ TEAM, even people said we are ANNOYED. First thing first I am so disappointed with myself because I've been defeat by my personal emotions at the end of this camp. I am not proud of myself. This matter is due to personal problems that suddenly appear which can't be mention. All I want to say is I am so grateful to be met with kak alin, kak mira,kak huda, kak qamar n kak zahra plus my classmates nad, hani n mia. It is an honored to be in the same group with you guys which make us even closer n know each other better.

I know i'm not the best team mate that u guys have been with I know I screwed up in BEDTIME STORIES where is I were not memorizing my lines. Now I know the facts that acting is definitely not my thing. I'm suck in it . I'm still feeling guilty of what had turned out.

Seriously, gonna miss everything we had go through together. even though it was exhausting.
WHO WE ARE?? WE ARE THE CHAMPION!! WHO WE ARE??? WE ARE THE BLITZ TEAM!! COMMON BLITZ FIGHT!! FIGHT!!FIGHT!!..POLLING IN LOPE~

angER !!!!!

2011-05-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

ARRRRGGHHHH!!!! Anger is definitely not my bestfriend FYI... I dont even know how to express it, if I could not take it anymore I just burst into tears which not enough. That's why I'm so sure I will die earlier than I thought.=(
but in certain stages I just cant help it. I hate it when people treat me like I wont get mad or being labelled as a timid person and wont be furious. I try to help anyone around me when they were in need. Coz one day I might got into trouble and need their help. We dont know, today is their day and other day might be mine. Let me clear this up, what I try to say sometimes people misunderstood with our kindness and started getting use to ~~use~~ us in anything.

Somehow it seems does not fair when we are in need for help and those people are ignoring you. When the time comes, we start to feel that we are in this world alone. At the beginning it is very sad to realize the fact that no one cares, at the end we start to feel very mad because those people that we have help before is ignoring you. ( EH jgn harap beri bunga dibalas bunga ye)

People might say that those statement mention as 'BERKIRA'. YAWW Just put yourself in that particular situation first la pry, then u tell me how does it felt. It's so true once people is very in need for your help, they will ask like hell but once they got it, 'my problem solved' I dont need u anymore. BANG!! that feelings was 'awesome'. Please do it frequently to everyone around you, k. (tgn ke dada mata ke atas)

Consider others feelings, dont ~~take for granted~~ of people's kindness coz once the patience is over, u could not tell what might happened.
MOOD= sy sgt marah ye skrg

The huge problem among problems

2011-05-17T01:43:00.000-07:00

Problems make us feel anxious and concern in how and what should we handle it. For me the BIGGEST and MOST DIFFICULT situation to handle is...PACKING MY LUGGAGE..

yes it is soo difficult sometimes I need someone else to check my stuff and tell me that I dont need certain stuff that I already packed. How can I handle this problem??? Like my friend said this is a syndrome that called 'RASA SEMUA PENTING'. Even my mum said to me that I 'll with face problem when I have my own family with kids. Aiyaaa... Kids stuff plus my stuff would take a lorry to bring it together with us if I dont make any effort to solve this conflict.
Is there any therapy involving this kind of problem?? Coz I might need it.

~~there were toiletries bag + makeup bag in it~~

There's one time I packed a pile or bunch of clothes for 2 days and 1 night like the duration of the stays is one week..Its not my fault coz I need options..in case if somebody throw up on my shirt of spill something on my pants, I need extra clothes right?? (ridiculous reasons) Since this problem occur I stop folding my clothes for packing my bag. What?? I'm not that lazy k, just stuffed the clothes?? no no.. I rolled all of it, save space so that I can put more item in it. I'm suck am i??

Still struggling to be so much wiser in packing my belongings k from time to time I'll try to bring a long things that I only need not I thought I need..Okie..
Girls..anyone shares same problem with me???raise ur hand

vlogs a.k.a videologgings

2011-05-01T03:36:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking to give a shot in vloggings...but still thinking about my own identity and not get influences by famous vloggers... MARIA ELENA has her own style.. hilarious yet got a lot of message in it, her topics more to courtesy that we must to instill in ourself as a Malaysian, human being. Her way to deliver her points is really creative and not bragging at all. She wants to tell that we have to do 'this' in stead of 'that' in a hikmah way where all viewer can accept it.
ANWAR HADI and MATLUTFI are other two famous vloggers..all youtubers know them...funny and educational..My personal opinion should be "sejuk perut mak diorang dapaat anak laki camni".. I admired them as a youth who is still studying..They both studying abroad y'll..i dont said studying locally is not good it just, if you being abroad you have extra things that u wont get locally..All of this 3 vloggers are educated and deserve to be as 'MODAL INSAN' for teenagers nowadays.
Integrity is one thing that all the 3 vloggers talk about. The awareness towards not throwing rubbish other than into the rubbish bins, being considerate and respect peoples opinion..Although we might see it as things that everyone knows and no need to be mention..but trust me people nowadays tend to ignore all this tinie tiny little things.(ok i'm a lil bit out of topic)
In addition, SHANE DaWSON in another famous vloggers. But his channel is more to entertainment, i'm not sure its educational or not..hmm..if it so..it is entertaining...since being in uni makes me spend a lot of time in front of laptops than watching television, YOUTUBE is a medium for me to know about what happen today and get some entertainment. Thanks YOUTUBE...
Actually there is a lot of other vloggers but I'm not really follow them.. Having a Youtube channel and have non good videos in it make me think to post something that interesting and a good material to be watched. These days I kind a collect some of material and think about involving in vloggings world..but I'm still consider about it because there are a lot of things to think about..because people will judging you after you post a video in youtube..arrrgghhh..That's scares me..I f I have no guts and being too conscious bout it..to be safe..dont do it...I am in the middle of conflict with myself ryte now..I f I wanna make a video..it must be good and not bored..That is the most important thing...
Just wait and see the progression..shall we??

If you can't say something nice, dont say nothing at all =)

2011-04-28T02:07:00.000-07:00

This quote is taken from 1st Disney cartoon that I watched when I was four years old if I'm not mistaken , ever heard about BIMBI? Binbi or Bimbi..ermm.. I'm not sure..but the point is..If you think something (words duhh~) that will come out from your mouth , will or may harm somebody's feelings..better to keep it to urself (yes mum!!).

I was a..chatterbox..talkative person.(still until today) ...talking is my charm =p
but suddenly at some point, I start to realize..why not to speak whenever I need to not whenever I want to....asking is not wrong.. but in term of speaking nonsense...that's what I've to avoid because trust me this is a fact....most of people likes a good listener than a good talker.( it's not I want to be likable) Okey, dont get me wrong here. I should make example before you take it wrongly.

What I'm trying to say is, when you feel slightly disagree with things that your friends said, dont straight away interrupt his/her speech..listen first..if you think you might spit out something harsh..or inappropriate..keep it to yourself..if you can control your personal emotions in expressing what you think..suit yourself..deliver your opinion healthily...( I cant do that)..crazy huh?? Being tolerate is not as hard as it seems if you are open to learn it.. (fine i'll learn)..

A:.'but that is who I am ,talking harsh is me, u got problem with that?'
B"I got no problem with that..(You got problem because you scared to live with the fact that you have to change.)
A:'Cakap cam bgos sgt je,weyh cermin diri dulu.'
B: I'm not an angel myself, I screwed up before just like..umm..I mean I thought that way before, but I changed (trying to)..gua ckp lagi ganaz dr lu de..(oopss trkeluar plak)
A: susah r ngan orang bertoleransi sgt cam ni..

Anyway..I'm not saying this because I am very good and perfect in term of self behavior.. I am here reminding myself too..That's why..there is a saying 'silence is golden'.

GOLD DSLR~

~~klu dah gian ngan dslr, everything relate ngan DSLR~~

hUH gold DSLR? common girl there is many other gold things out there..( I guess this is the most priceless to me..hee~)

So on and so far..that's all I want to share...let's change for better..shall we??

Music 音楽 müzik 음악 الموسيقى

2011-04-22T18:17:00.000-07:00

Indeed the topic that I want to talk about is important..crucial..and most of teenagers can't live without it. (including me kowt)..

~~tyra ni semua bende nak addicted~~

So the title of this post is ~~MUSIC~~ (dah pandai gune google translate dah sekarang :p)
BTW there a few other languages that bring the same meaning with music..English followed by Japanese...Turkish (y turkish?!).. Korean and Arabic (since I am taking the language for this semester).
Either I like it or not, I am one of the victim of this new evolution addiction.Budaya telinga bersumbat (ngan earphone or headphone k) ni is part of our tradition nowadays kowt. Everyone from all over the world doing it.
From my point of view each songs or music will remind me of certain event,people or place which plays an important role in my life.

~~cute kan??~~

Recently, during my stay for few days at home (study week) my mum gave me a pillow (tq mommy). ~~NO ORDINARY PILLOW~~. Knowing her daughter who loves to plug in her ears, she gave me a pink (duhh pillow with a speaker ( i can just connected it to my mp3 or phone) and simply play the music while I am about to sleep. My mum said "this pillow is for you so that You will listen to ayat2 Al-Quran before u sleep dear"( each of your word is a doa mama). Insyaallah...Hee~ like3

~~teddy bear pon dgr headphone~~

Sometimes there is a list of songs that will remind me of one person, not the singer or the band that sing the song.( i should study for final la sekarang). For instance, I dont wanna know by Mario Winans will remind me to my friend Sh. Farida anak pakcik Syed Abd. Rahim because we made a webcam vid singing this song during boredom is our bestfriend. lol
There are few songs that will remind me to my mommy (actually I think about her all the time la) since we love to record our singing voice together during our spare time. The songs are.. she still the 1 by Shania Twain and Hopelessly Devoted to u by Olivia Newton John. Love u mama

~~dont be too addictive ya~~

N'sync or BSB songs will remind me of my brother~ Ajin.. Most of songs that I listen to was prefer by him. He loves boyband and for a past few years he memorize all of the dancemoves (applause). Nowadays he just discover his new talent. BEATBOX~ so he started to beatboxing (huh?!) all the song he loves. Wait.. there are heaps of songs la for this handsome fella..I cant list all of them.

I love Michael Buble's song entitle Home because my Australian mum love the song so much. That song remind me of her , I remember she thought me how to play piano which I am totally suck in :p Miss ya mum. She fly to Sydney from Mackay just to attend Michael Buble concert.

BOB & Hayley- Airplanes is a song for my orientation week in uni same goes with waka waka by Shakira. I was homesick that time and in my adjustment + adapting phase.

Beautiful Love by The Afters will remind me of Qawiem who choose to go to Alam even he got offers from UTP & UNITEN.. Hve a blast time spending 6 months on ship. What ever ur decision is I'll support u dear. Kamek support tok decision kitak *tol ke ek? (even I slightly disagree) :*

These word- Natasha Bedingfield song will remind me during my 4 month stays in hostel when I was 13. I hate that feeling but I'm glad I have that 4 month of duration experiencing hostel environment.=p

~~xoxo~~

There are a lot of people around me with songs and I cant list all of them but so u guys know I love u guys with the songs.ha6
For me everyone have their own favourite songs and I love for them to share with me coz I am open for new things. Suggest me any of songs u like, for sure I'll listen to it =D

LOVESTRUCK ~

2011-04-10T06:10:00.000-07:00

i FALL in love again~
with DSLR...as I am a gadjet addicted (mampu bg title je nak beli gadjet byk2 x mampu)...cinta berputik tatkala miss pinkie ku lensenyer rosak..since that I just took picture with my x3-02..the result is unstatisfied... dreaming to have it..to own it is like builds the castle in the air..it will not if I start saving some money (me saving??mmmm), nothing is impossible kan..

~~cool ryte?~~

I started doing research about it..tgk2 ade x kaler pink..FORTUNATELY XDE~ (pujuk aty pdahal x kisah pon kaler ape, nak jugak!!!) ehem..ehem... never thought about having this bulky thing (sudey la)..It is not handy at all,since I have down size my handbag..having it is not a good idea (nak!!)
The price of this heavy n delicate to take care of gadjet is expensive... I might have to cut down my monthly expenses from rm400 permont to rm150 per month afterwards (x hidup la)
Hmmmm..how on earth I can earn money to get this thing?? Perhaps after I continue my degree or master.. (babah bace la blog ni!!) If I have to choose, car or DSLR?? i would say car..with a DSLR in it..( nak kene gelak ke??)
Before dreaming for this thing I just thought about having samsung camera which have dual screen display..

~~seronak camwhore weyh~~

so on and so far, i think the only thing that I can afford is....

~~DSLR CAKE~~~

or not ~

Turning 9teen

2011-04-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

ni wish card dari KUNIM~bermakna ok...tq2

Bella nyer speech menusuk sgt~thank u for helping me to change into a better person..make me realize about the fact of life

Roomate ku syg sgt suke melihat ku pki shawl lalu die memberi ku ini~ TQ SGT2 ROOMATE KU YANG HENSEM

i KEPT ALL THE WISH AND PRAYS FROM U GUYS

XOXO

Happy Birthday to me ~ and this is not my birthday cake.lol

This year is my 1st time celebrating my birthday without my family around. I am kind a sad because this year would be a final year for me to called as a teenager.

Thank you to IDA + BELLA + KUNIM + FEGHUZ for buying a cake for me and a small celebration even its actually not a perfect time in term of having extra money. I really appreciate your sacrifices. IDA ... tq for the maybelline lip gloss and be the first person to wish my birthday. Plus the funny story behind getting the lip gloss for me..

The real story is u said that u have to buy something important at HKS (Hok KEE Seng) Market. Then u asked KUNIM to go with you and I said I want to go to because I need to buy a bread. At that moment I have no idea that you want to buy a present for me so I just follow you guys. After I get the bread then u bought the lip gloss. haha

tq once again.

Thank you soo much coz u guys get me a cake..and the photo of my real cake is corrupted :(

so I cant share the picture. The wish on the cake is 'BE MATURE'. xley bla... am I too childish?? sob3 Its ok I'll try my best to change k?

I cried at the morning of my birthday because I received text message from my mum in form of pray. She said how much grateful she feels to have me as her daughter. The only daughter. (EVERYTIME i READ HER TEXT i'LL CRY) I cry in Arabic class this morning and in Edu Psychology class. tHANKX TO pROF zUL FOR NOT HAVING A QUIZ today :D that is a gift from u to me unintentionally...
Thankx to everyone who wish and pray for me in Facebook. eVEN U guys dont give any present, ur willness to wish n pray for is enough already,coz for me a birthday is not all about gifts (tp klu dapat sape x suke an..hi2) Looking forward to celebrate my birthday with family back in Kuantan...xoxo

and this is not my cup cake ;

ps:still waiting for u to wish for my birthday..eeee geramnyer asal x wish2

ARR xoxo

2011-04-06T08:21:00.000-07:00

These days I’ve been a kind of person that cried whenever she wants. The tears just came out. It is not because my tears are cheap but I’ve being really sensitive lately. For instance, at my study table in uni, I paste my brother’s picture on the wall. To see him growing up in front of me and become such a successful teenager, someone I did not expecting him to be, make me feel touched. My tears dropped automatically everytime I sit at my study table. He also inspired me in many ways. I’m not bragging here, it just that I see him changing becoming a better person in term of intelligence, attitude, and awareness. I wish I can change myself in those terms. I’m talking about my younger brother here. I am actually being more sensitive than my mom (mama too bad I becoming more like you each day) ps: I am proud to becoming like you. He is a big portion of my life. We grew up together and gone through a lot of thing together. I can’t imagine when the day he already continued studies to the next level where he is no longer at home when I got home.

As he grows older he expresses his feelings less. Sometimes I wonder what did he felt inside. I still remember the day we stayed with our aunt family because our parents went to Mecca for Hajj. Whenever I cried he will cry and whenever I cried he will do the same thing. Look~ (MY TEARS AUTOMATICALLY CAME OUT). He is my best friend ever even he did hurt me sometimes; (I hurt him too). He is irreplaceable. Nowadays it is hard to share every single thing with him since he is busy with his commitment, once in a while I’ll went home but he always out for extra classes and other important things. Everytime I heard someone complement him I feel very touched. I am totally sensitive than my mom ryte now. Everyone that has been known him or being around him will be pleasure to met a person like him. I wish he will always be with me until now. I wrote this doesn’t mean that I love him more than my other brother. It just something that what I feel right now.

I wish him all the best for his SPM this year. And I love u AHMAD RAZIN.

sesuatu yang saya nak sangat buat

2011-04-04T06:37:00.000-07:00

Kali ni nak tulis dalam bm plak eh. Sejak dari sekolah lagi tyra nak sangat wat keje amal macam ziarah rumah orang tua dan rumah anak yatim. Time skolah dulu tyra ada ambik subjek sivik jd dpt la keje kene brsihkan masjid. Tyra ckp ni bukan sebab rase diri baik ke ape, tp lepas kite beramal n buat sesuatu kebaikan dgn rela hati, ada satu perasaan yang kite x boley ungkapkan dengan kata2.Satu perasaan yg puas tau.
Macam impian jadi kenyataan sbb dapat melawat rumah anak yatim Darul Falah kat sini. Nasib baik join ko Rakan Kaunselor. Alhamdulillah..Nak share gambar je la..

ni anak2 yatim dalam group tyra. Sebenarnyer tyra xde group coz tyra AJK..tp main masuk je. Nasib baik adik2 ni sporting.

Ni plak kami plajar UNISZA yg brbeza course tp semua ahli rakan kaunselor. Korg best..

Ni Ibnu Hafiz. Adik yang tyra dapat. Tau ape impian die.. Die nak hafal 30 juzu' Al-quran. Umur die 16 tahun . Die bagi kerjasama yang baik untuk semua aktiviti. Akak doakan yang terbaik untuk Ibnu. Bila berada kat Darul Falah ni tyra rase insaf n lebih bersyukur dengan ape yang tyra dah ade. Memang patut sekali sekala kita berada dalam kesusahan supayaa kite dapat mengingatkan diri kita. Harap2 tyra dapat peluang macam ni lagi.

is that person is me?

2011-04-04T06:02:00.000-07:00

MC...... short form for master of ceremony which mean someone who responsible to make an event run smoothly in term of presenting the ceremony or occasion. When I was small I am amazed and admired...more to wonder...how on earth a person manage and have guts to speak in front of hundreds or million people who attending the event. Did he/she memorize every single thing that he/she will speak? At that moment I already said to myself, I will never be that brave and talented to attract people attention while I am speaking in front. no..no..not in a million years.

We can’t predict the future. One day...BOOM~ I am MC for my cousins wedding.* now she's have a baby in her belly (congrats~) What I thought that time, I’m sure there’s no harm because it is just in front of my family members and future family members (my cousin’s husband’s family). Piece of cake..small matter..That was a day I lost all my thought about never talk in public. Even I was a prefect but I never handle an assembly. NEVER. Talking in public just destroy me. But after that particular event everything was change. This crazy thought starts to linger in my mind. ‘No harm Tyra it just a speaking session, you love to speak, but this time you talk to many people. Just less than 200 people in a room. You will not regret it because it might be an extra value about you compare to others.’ But if I looked back, I think I just embarrassed myself. *thanked got that wedding ceremony going smoothly. So there was everything started.

TESL Annual Dinner 2011 unFORTUNATELY...I was responsible to be one of the MC. I really hope I was not ruin the event. I hope I am not too DULL...too HAPPENING...extra ENERGATIC... i AM LEARNING FROM MISTAKES..Trust me not everyone can be in that place..I was the unlucky one.. I should consider myself lucky ryte? At least I already tried my best. Gave all out that night. *even I was not behave appropriately. I’ll definitely improve myself in future. Am I born to be MC?? IDTS... I just not afraid to try something new and have inner conflict with myself :p *liar

~~ps: The theme that I try to bring out in me is pop princess but it turned out to be rock princess. spoilt~~~

Life.... expect the unexpected

2011-03-24T07:02:00.000-07:00

My course mate has questioned this statement, how to expect something that we don’t expected?? The true meaning of this ‘quote; which actually I take from AFS Intercultural Programme, the non government organization that I dedicate my life to, (dedicate la sgt setakat volunteer je pon) btw actually in my uni I think the amount of people that recognize the organisation, we can count with our finger. Its ok, you guys can google about it.

The example of unexpected things that happened to me is I just noticed if I said that I hate something or someone, for sure at the end I’ll end up liking it. YEAH~

These thing keep on happening to me seriously, maybe it is some way for GOD telling me to watch out my words. (so tyra watch your words). Another example, I said once I said ‘Like a G6’ is a rubbish song but in the end it becomes my message tone. DUHH~

In some event, we think he/she is a right person for us but after quite sometimes he/she got nothing to do with you anymore. That’s happen in any kind relationship. When this happened there is no one to blame. It just not a win win situation. For me I would say I have gone through this sort of thing many times but still I never give up in relationship coz that how we learn. True it hurts you a lot if the relationship did not last. How to handle it?? Just time can cured everything.

That’s why I hold this quote, the opposite of LOVE is not HATE but IGNORE. No wonder I love ‘Ignorance’ by Paramore so much. * xde kaitan

Like now I am taking TESL, don’t be shock if someday I turn up to be a business woman. *the statement is too ridiculous

Or fashion designer perhaps.

I know whatever decision I made doesn’t seem to be good in everyone eyes but until when should I lived based on what people wants? So let me make a decision which I think good for everyone. (even what I think sometime doesn’t make sense but let me k?) *mane ade org nak bace pon

Wow!! I wrote quite long this time..

Note to myself

2011-02-26T10:26:00.000-08:00

Truth sometimes hurt

27^th February 2011, 2.07 a.m

The moment I feel terrible

No other human being I hate the most

other than myself right now.

What I’ve learn and what I want to change is quite a number

But it doesn’t matter..

It is for my own good..

For my future, living around people who have feelings

Hey you!

The one who wrote this..

What all of them had done to you is to give you a lesson

Being a jerk will make your life misery

Stop talking like you are the most brilliant person on earth

Coz you are nothing close to that

Even your eyes swollen cause by tears

There’s nothing to be forgiven

You hurt people that love you

That care about you

That always be there for you

Then, what that’s makes you??

A person??

Let me tell you..

Life is not all about you

You don’t have to act childish to attracts peoples attention

Coz u juz make them noxious when they see you

Do you like that??

So, think like an adult

It is not impossible to change

It is not about people around you isolate you

It is about your annoying attitude

Watch your mouth

Not everyone bear to listen every single thing that came out from it

Your brain is there to be used

Being yourself doesn’t mean you have to make yourself look like a fool

Coz you used to it

Think about what people might think about you

Hello people are everywhere to judge

So..wake up!!

HYPOCRITE ~

2011-02-19T18:31:00.000-08:00

HYPOCRITE~

I have problem with this word since ever. The precise definition of this annoying word is a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, especially a person whose actions belie stated beliefs or in easier word pretenders. I have no idea why this thing has bother me for ages.

In my opinion hypocrite is a phase for someone to improve him/herself in order to be a better person without harming anyone (unless there are people are too concern about others a.k.a busybody). If someone have a good intention to change his/her attitude because he/she not being or act as a good person before, does it call hypocrite??

I f someone just change to a whole new environment and try to get along which involving adaptation, does it called hypocrite??

Trying to get along with everyone with different kind of attitudes, background and social status in order to have a good relation, does it called hypocrite??

A friend have told me that, bottom line is ignores what other said about you if you do nothing wrong. You’re not a hypocrite if u did something for your own good.

DON’T BE AFRAID TO CHANGE FOR BETTER ~

Brother's day~

2011-01-20T22:11:00.000-08:00

We usually heard about mother's day, fathers day.. I am celebrating fathers day.. For me I am the luckiest sister on earth since I have the coolest brother ever whom cannot be replace and I love them so much, (although sometimes they such a pain in the butt). I have a eldest brother and 2 younger brother. The 1st one is 20 years old, i'm in the middle the 3rd one is taking his SPM this year but now he is in Australia and the youngest one is taking his UPSR this year.

In school days, I wish I have a sister but when I grow older I am so grateful that I have none of them (in laws in future is acceptable)lol. Each of my brothers have the quality that I wish will have in my future husband (deep thinker). Along a.k.a Adi nak agi his facebook name have a intelligent brain + looks+concern+tough physiques. He know how much I love to be pampered and I'm the only girl that he can hug (hihi). He done a lot for me although he such a teaser when I was a small girl but he take care of me whenever my parents was not around. When he entered a boarding school I was the one who devastated and cried a lot.

Ajin a.k.a Uda (name after he got younger brother). I love to call him Jiji. After my eldest brother left for boarding school, he was the one who always be with me. He both have a sensitive heart. As he growing older as a teenager, we shared a lot of problems and stories since we school at the same place. He is good looking+muscular (skinny)+clever+joker. He started to act like my elder brother ,being protective and advisor to me. For a start when I register in uni, I feel very lost without him telling me what's good or bad. I cried a lot too when he leave for Australia since i'm the one who being left that time (normally i'm the one who leave). I sleep with his sweater till now.HURRY UP COME BACK!!

Last but not least, the chubby one. Raims a.k.a ammi. We argue a lot bcoz he's the youngest 1 and i'm the only girl. He started to annoy me like all of his brother when he reach 10. Our parents can't stand my immature behavior and I can't stand when he irritating me. So, I started to act like a sister to him and when only both of us left in the house, we started to get along well. He is hardworking (in certain works), considerate and never forget about his siblings.

Bottom line is... I love all of them just the way they are. When I on my own now I started to feel how much I miss them and I'm not afraid to admit that How much I love them. LOVE U GUYS~

hair clips ~

2011-01-17T06:56:00.000-08:00

Suddenly~ x tahan klu tgk hairclips skrg ni..lg2 klu yg kiut2...bukan nyer klip kat rambut tp kat shawl..x sihat kan?? x kisah la..asalkan sy happy an..hihi..jd akan mengumpulkan byk2 hairclips afterwards...klu lah ade Marienyer hair clips kan..klu ade jumpe inform la ek...

2nd sem..

2011-01-08T19:52:00.000-08:00

Beginning of 2011~Hurmm...too many things we do..since class does not started yet.. assignment had not been given yet...problems did not occur yet....nothing much to say i juz wanna put a few picture that i not uploaded at my fb... hee~
BTW I already wear my 1st high heel..4 and a half inch..thanked god i've started to get use to it..a'ai call it Victoria Beckham shoes,,HOHO..or my mum call it 'kasut yg boleh bunuh org'..Honestly, after walking in that shoes for a whole day, my back strained.. what an experience..i am killing my own backbones..

If in high school I like to take photos ADAEMAN...but now in uni..there is new couple.. NEDDIQ(suke cantum name owg)...cute2..tp klu diorg gdoh..hurmm...extraordinary couple sket diorg nih..x pnah lg jmpe couple cam ni..tp Siddiq tu baik la even die hot tempered..

We already plan about our trip to JB..money$$$$$$..huh...which really bothering me ryte now...I have to do something so thati'll be more wiser in money matters..i just realise that I aam a SHOPPAHOLICS~ JUZ LIKE rEBECCA bLOOMWOOD....BUT i DONt have creadit card like her...

Just cut my hair~

2010-12-19T22:02:00.000-08:00

I decided to have a new look for new year but still not sure how should i cut it. Salon??? nope..This time i will cut it by myself..Normally I ask my dad to cut for me..So..i've thinking to keep the length and give some fringe in front of my forehead.. but i already did that style twice..when I was little n when i'm in form3..
since i got wavy hair that style wont do..but who cares??
its like i have Vanessa hair and want to do Selena's look..I t doesn't make sense ryte??

Guess what I already did..make myself look like 5 years old me..My parents agree with me..I look exactly when i was 5..but this time I am taller n darker..unfortunately there was an accident..not obviously seen..with wavy hair like this the result will not be as I wish.That's fine coz the one to blame is me.

By the way, it doesn't matter coz I am wearing head cover in public but does matter for self satisfaction tho...my mum said this kind of look will face problem when i want to ware head cover..u know fringe in front of forehead.let be~

It's been a while~

2010-12-18T21:30:00.000-08:00

I have a blog but I rarely post anything..So basicly I will post according to my mood.. I am so happy coz juz now I got news from my brother in Mackay. He said he dont met my host mum yet.I dunno how to express how much I miss him. Its embarrassing to admit that I sleep with his AFS sweater on his bed and wears his shirt while I'm still at home.

He let me to bring that sweater to uni, I love all of my brothers. Everytime they left me I will cry but if I am the one who leave, I wont drop a single tears which means 'I can leave u but u can't leave me. No wonder I have no guts to give a shot in a relationship. I am not tough enough to be disappointed.Thanks to u along coz lend your hug to keep me calm while i'm crying at the airport. Thanks coz u dont feel embarrassed
to walk with me that time.

This coming 24 Jan will have 2 important things for me. Along's 21st birthday n Ajin's arrival. YEAY!!!! Too bad i wont be around that time.

Raimi thank you for not crying. If you did, thankx for not crying in front of me , coz it will make me cry too which is not good. I had major headache after crying.

cAr~

2010-10-14T22:33:00.000-07:00

Ade ura2 mengatakan En Ruzaini nak bg toy baru kat cik Athirah...hee
Tp ura2 je la kan...sb En Ruzaini dpt vroom2 bru n nak give a way City nyer...
Cik Athirah x la mengharap sgt (tipu2)...toy ape2 pon boley (myvi pink ok gak)~demand giler
x kisah kete pape tp klu ley nak kaler pink...hihi
viva pink ok jgak..tp En Ruzaini kate..kancil jew..x kisah la kete pape pon... asalkan kete... sem 2 nanti xyah naik bas dah..(menggunung tiggi harapan)

Athirah= keep on smiling although she is suffering

2010-10-01T10:29:00.000-07:00

Yup...I am trying soo hard to keep on pretending nothing is wrong with me..but actually....i am fooling myself...i dont want to sacrifice anymore..I wanna know how does it feel if someone love u...only u...I want to know how does it feel to be no 1 in someone's..how to stop hurting yourself Athirah..stop doing that..u have been doing that ever since...u deserve to be happy instead of sacrificing yourself..stop feeling sorry...

I have to realize that..sacrifice is not always another term of love...How to avoid from loving someone who is belong to someone else....Athirah..u are not like that.. u know what is right and wrong..u always be reasonable..please dont repeat the same mistake that u have did...open ur eyes...dont let urself getting hurt again,,u deserve to be happy...

Feeling down -..-

2010-08-26T23:49:00.000-07:00

Dunno why lately I felt emotionally unstable.. I should not feel that way coz I got the best people in the world around me..Although somehow I feel they kind a make a distance from me...I hope i do nothing wrong.. Yeah a few people that used to be closed to me started to make a huge size of great wall of China in our relationship. I dont mind as long as u happy.
My performance is going down too..Recently we got quiz for English Proficiency .. I can imagine how Ms Alia will react, 'T-rex I am so gonna kill u!!'.For my classmates I am not as bright as u guys thought.U guys can categorize me as one of the 'lumpy' person u've ever known.
I dont't mind if u gonna kill me but I have to do better for my own future not for you. It just grammar Athirah..
Cant wait to be home and be pampered by Babah n Mama after a long time living in an independent daily life here.
I have to get use to life where no one give attention to u..I have to start being a grown ups..yup for sure..
I am so confused whether should I join Kesenian club or not..I want to but I cant.. that's the simplest reason..Dont feel like writing actually.

0_0 me being tough

2010-07-30T08:11:00.000-07:00

I'm not getting lucky all the time.I had my bad day yesterday but I am grateful coz I know that ALLAH love me that's why i faced so many difficulties in a day.Start from the morning, there was a PTPTN N BIMB thing to settle.I just realise that i just have a copy of my mum slip gaji, so what i did was leave the long queue n rush to the library to photostat it.When I return back to DABS my fren Ika told me that the form just need a only a copy of a backup document, such a waste.Its ok~ think positive Athirah that is ur exercise for today.
The session with PTPTN a lil bit disorganised coz people cut queue.Those people have no integrity at all, such a selfish.During my turn....disaster happen..my form have a liquid paper mark so..it was REJECTED..the machine can't scan form with liquis paper marks...I almost cry but big girls dont cry ryte?? I rush to the library to print out those forms again which cost me RM4.40.... It's all my fault:(
Back in DABS...I call my dad n ask him is ryte for me to go straight away to the counter or should I queue again and he said this time I should be selfish coz I have a bus to catch..being selfish is soo not me i feel anxious bout what people would say bout my act...I sit near to Ika n Mia n told them bout my story, both of them ask me to go to the counter straight away but I still dont feel good bout doing it,So what I did was talk to the person who was suppose to be next (dealing with ptptn staff) asking for permission to go before her...But she said she also in a rush coz she have a class..negotiation does'nt work...so do it hard way..forget bout what they said..i went straight away to that akak n she still remember me n ask me to sit with a smiling face..I love u la kakak..U are the best although u asked me to print back the forms before..
PTPTN SETTLED~:D
My second scene was..I missed my bus..and it was not my mistakes..the bus wrote nothing bout the destination..i bought ticket for trans so there’s no reason i ride city liner..arrghh..I have no idea y Trgganu Terminal have such a disorganized system..RM18.90 gone just like that... so i bought another ticket at 5.30pm which turn out to be 6.30p.m.Guess what my seat no.??? 38 but the seat in the bus is just 32...(doent make any sense)I have right to complain but I am too tired to bother. So I were stand for a while..thanked god there was a gentleman that gave me a seat..Although he was trying to flirt..At the end we had a chat and he made to get my no...silly me

Gonna leave this house soon

2010-07-01T08:53:00.000-07:00

So...only 2 more sleep left..then off me go...I hope I will fit in well.. ari ni dapat good news..Tabung Haji call n inform that our family ley g haji ujung thun ni..Alhamdulillah...so my preparation...i will be a better person n bykkan usaha dekatkan diri dgn Allah n bertaubat..Heaps of sin i already made before..should ask 4 forgiveness...I dunno what i feel now..sleepy for sure..

BTW..Kak dayah dah balik dr Jordan..huhu...hepi2..xtau nak tulis pe dah...sedey la nak tggalkan umah...nak bwk ke x Marie kepala besar tu ek??Hmmm

~BOWLING~

2010-06-18T03:49:00.000-07:00

As every member in my family know..I AM A BAD BOWLING PLAYER~ (well that's not hard to admit)..even my youngest brother is better than me..LOL and he just 11 years old... Well after a long time yesterday night my eldest brother accidently payed for six person..That's mean I have to play..OMG!!!I t such a waste of money and time.. Me playing??NO WAY~....If one day I have a boyfriend I'm not gonna let him drag me to the bowling alley..

So..as usual my 1st throw sucks...but miracle happen sometimes..to me... i got all pin fell in my 2nd throw..HAHA...I am so surprised..Me???doing that???That must be someone else..or it just a coincident..The most weird thing was, everytime during my turn the 1st throw will be in the drain but the 2nd one it will strike more than half of the pin but far from strike...1st throw for every round was cursed..That's all I can say..

Mama just discover that her lucky ball is not that lucky coz it so light which that is the reason y she bought it..So she try her shot using other ball..ball number 9 blue (colour is important LOL)...She score higher point with that heavier ball..but it makes her wrist hurts..So that's me throwing in the alley again..Practice makes perfect ryte~